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Ten to Three Bakery

2012-01-14T03:40:00.009+07:00

Last weekend, me and hubby visited a bakery in Rotterdam called Ten to Three Bakery. Honestly I was looking for cupcakes around Rotterdam (as I also did in Jakarta). I found five so far, Lily's, V&D, Bijenkorf, HEMA and Ten to Three's. Considering V&D, Bijenkorf and HEMA are not shops that sell cakes exclusively (they sell everything, cakes just have to find their way to snoop around ;), I was looking forward to taste Lily's and Ten to Three.

The interior of the bakery

We (yes, we) found this bakery while we were at the centrum during koopavond (every Friday, Rotterdam shops open until 9 pm, which is the latest they can get) and I decided to visit the bakery that Saturday. From outside it looks like a cute place (to be honest, hubby was kinda afraid to be seen in there lol) and I fell in love, of course, with the pinks, yellows and flowery patterns.

Hubby looks like he don't belong :P

We ordered vanilla cupcake with chocolate cream, chocolate cupcake with vanilla cream and the red velvet cupcake. A cappuccino for hubby and a cafe latte for me. The classic cupcakes cost 2,25 euro and the specialty (red velvet) costs 2,75 euro. The regular sized drinks cost 2,50 euro each.

Everything that we ordered. Mini cupcakes, vanilla-chocolate, chocolate-vanilla, cappucinno, red velvet, latte.

I got a mini cupcakes for my foursquare check in (and a coffee purchase), got it in vanilla-vanilla. It is a nice place to spend time especially with girlfriends I guess, I saw some girls having their high tea treats together here, with mini savory treats. The bakery used pretty tea and coffee ware and I especially love the surprise writing on the saucer.

The writings on the saucer. It's an Alice in Wonderland teaware

After the tastings, I have to say that I like hubby's cupcake most, which was vanilla cupcake with chocolate cream. The cake was quite nice but I prefer it to be more moist and fluffy. As for the cream, I think most shops in Netherlands have same consistency for their cream, and for me it's still too hard. I miss the yummy fluffy cupcakes from Chocolate Amore at Kem Chik and Café Sweets in Pacific Place. Still, as I mentioned earlier, I think it's a nice place to spend time with girlfriends. It was quite packed while we were there and some people had to queue for the cupcakes so, better give it a try :)

You can find more information about ten to three at their website here :)

Watch These Beauties Dance

2011-09-04T07:10:00.002+07:00

A very cute video from Chanel. I especially love the end credits :)

I long for the day I get to buy them without thinking ;) amen to that, sisters!

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2011-09-01T12:58:00.001+07:00

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Stella Lee and Dunia Kutek's OPI Giveaway

2011-09-01T11:59:00.005+07:00

This morning I woke up to an e-mail notification from Stella Lee about an OPI giveaway. I guess it's not a secret that I am quite obsessed to nail polish :) (check out my post here) so when I found out about this giveaway I wanna join right away :)

A little background about the blogs behind this giveaway; I recently followed Stella Lee's blog because of my sister, I think they met on MUFE bloggers' event. As for duniakutek, I've been a customer of Cammy since she first opened her store at femaledaily forum... And I was so excited when she opened duniakutek.com

So, the giveaway has total 1 mio worth of OPI products as prize (how exciting is that?) shared like this:

1st winner will receive =

3 regular size of OPI Nail Polishes, 2 mini size of OPI Nail Polishes, and one mini size of OPI Treatment

(worth >Rp450.000)

2nd winner will receive =

2 regular size of OPI Nail Polishes, 2 mini size of OPI Nail Polishes, and one mini size of OPI Treatment

(worth >Rp350.000)

3rd winner will receive =

1 regular size of OPI Nail Polishes, 2 mini size of OPI Nail Polishes, and one mini size of OPI Treatment

(worth >Rp250.000)

To join, you have to do these things here:

The winners will be chosen randomly by random generator [random.org]. All you have to do is to follow these rules =

1. MUST follow Stella Lee and Dunia Kutek via Google Friend Connect (+2 points)

2. Follow Dunia Kutek’s Twitter (+1 point)

3. Follow Stella Lee via email subscription (+1 point)

4. Follow Stella Lee via BlogLovin (+1 point)

5. Blog about this giveaway on your blog, you can use the banner above, dont forget to link Stella Lee's site and mention DuniaKutek website as well (+2 points)

6. Place this giveaway on your blog’s sidebar, hyperlink it to the giveaway post (+1points)

7. Make a public photo album on your facebook about Dunia Kutek consists of products from the site that you like, and mention DuniaKutek website on there (+2 points)

The total will be 10 points if you follow all of it. Once you’ve done the rules, you can leave comment on the original post using this format =

Google Friend Connect ID =

Twitter ID =

Email =

Bloglovin ID =

Blog Giveaway Post Link =

Blog Link =

Facebook Link =

Shades from OPI that you’d like to try =

All the winners will be chosen randomly. The more rules you follow means the bigger points you collect, so the higher chance for you to win these amazing prizes!

This giveaway runs from 1st September to 25th September 12A.M.

I haven't blog long enough but so far this is the first giveaway I encountered so I'm really excited! :) More nail polish for everyone, please ^^

Vote for My Sister

2011-07-17T08:09:00.002+07:00

Hi!

My sister (check out her blog at allthatmakeup.blogspot.com) entered a contest from Indonesian make up brand, Sariayu. She's doing a look called Sensual Glaze :) I personally think it looks awesome (partly because there's no way I'm doing anything like that :P)

You can see her entry here.

And if you like it, you can vote for her with your twitter/facebook account :))

2011-05-29T19:44:00.002+07:00

For my loveliest people, wherever and whoever.

I wish all these for you

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

@iwearUP Anya Grey | my unsung hero

2011-03-27T21:50:00.006+07:00

If someone ask me, if you have money to spend, which product would you spend most on. I would most probably say shoes. Funny in my family there are 3 girls; mom, sis and me. Each would probably answer that question differently. Mom loves bags, sis loves make up (I do love those things too, but...) I love shoes.

Most of the time, it doesn't have to be specially made and unique. I am okay saying that my fashion sense is average. (true!) But when I really like a pair of shoes, I would be quite obsessed with it (case example: Nine West Bonfire, December 2009) I have a confession tho, for a long time, wedges have been listed as the last place in my shoe obsession list. For me they look heavy and I used to say that wearing wedges is like bringing baggage at your feet. But then, last December, something changed my mind.

Most people might knew Diana Rikasari already, she's a fashion blogger at this URL. I used to be a silent follower and just enjoyed the hot chocolate and mint as a destination to click to whenever I browsed. She once collaborated with Wondershoe and BloopEndorse making flat shoes and clothes, and although I was so close at purchasing the flat shoes, I wasn't really sure. But when she launched her own shoe label, UP, I gotta say I'm hooked ^^ It was during the weeks of my freelance work at McKinsey, so, I'm not proud, even before I got my paycheck, I placed my order there already. Then two weeks later, I first met my Anya grey.

My Anya!

Here she is up close :)

It was love at first wear :P Anya is soooo comfy! And I love being 9 cm taller, I wore Anya to the mall all day and felt as if I'm wearing flats. After that I wear it everywhere, indoor outdoor, wherever. I think in my case UP has achieved its purpose to be the shoes I'd decide upon wearing whenever I don't know what to wear. I reach for this soooo often. Sometimes when I go to church wearing nice high heels, I brought Anya with me in my car to change afterwards when I hit the mall.

I didn't know why it took me so long to write a post about Anya, maybe because I was too busy wearing it everywhere that I forgot ;) and today as I was having afternoon tea (?) with my bridesmaids-to-be, I met the shoe-designer herself. Funny story, when she passed by, I told Retno, "hey, would it be too embarrassing to you if I ask her to take a pic with me?" and Retno's expression simply told me not to.

My Latte

Laras' hot chocolate

But then she greeted me and said if she could take a pic of me wearing my Anya, cuz she loves taking pics of people who wears her UP shoes. ^^ So here we are, and damn, she made me want that Stella Red even more :P

I was wearing a batik dress bought by mom in Solo, 50k idr, can you believe it? Paired with iWearUP Anya Grey, and a hellolulu bag to bring Washington in (not pictured, Mom said it makes me look like I'm going out to run errands).

on my face ;P :

Monistat Chaffing Relief as primer, Revlon PhotoReady 005, Revlon Microfine Natural Loose Powder 02 Medium, MAC Peachykeen powder blush, TFSI, Urban Decay 24/7 Zero, EOS lipbalm in Summer Fruit, MAC Syrup lipstick, Sephora lipgloss.

Too bad UP is closed for the rest of March because they have reached their order limit. I promise myself that when it's open again, I'm gonna order 2 pairs! Venus and Stella. After that... Jane and Kate? And then.... Oh my this is dangerous!!! :D

My Polishes (Warning: Picture Heavy!)

2011-02-22T20:20:00.012+07:00

Maybe I haven't mentioned it much in this blog, but I really love nail polish. REALLY love it I think I should restrain myself when it comes to this. Sometimes when my manicure chipped even just a tiny bit, I have an urge to remove it and re-do it all over again. (Picture Rachel Berry, not good not good)

This is not a very good hobby... hohoho but I love color coordinating. I'm not good with eye make up, or whatever make up out there. But you can trust me about doing my own nails. And aside from foundation, which I think you should buy a good one (cuz it's named FOUNDATION for something, you know), nail polish/treatment comes second. Good base and top coats are a must because what's the point of having a nice color when it chips easily...

I think it all started around last year's March. Remember this post when I wrote about mini Essie polishes? Things pretty much went from there... Around July I graduated, and for that occasion, I tried some polishes to go with my dress (yes, guilty as charged) including my love at first sight Dulce de Leche. I think if I start listing my polish haul, I would feel guilty, so better not...

Sometimes I took pictures of my manicure, but they're mostly just one colored, I don't do artsy stuff and I can't do Konad (nor interested in it). I love creme finish the most, compared to glitter or shimmer or matte or suede. Cremes are a classic and easy to remove. I love how it always dries clean. :)) This doesn't mean I never wear glitter/shimmer/whatever, I sometimes wear them but I like creme the most. Oh, and because I hardly ever take good pictures (with my G11) of my manicure, I found most of the pics in my blackberry. And I only posted them in my twitter sometimes... Today I scrolled down the image gallery of my blackberry and found many pictures of my manicure, the oldest was from around May 2010, guess it was for my cousin's wedding :) I decided to post them here :D

This is Skin Food's nail polish, I don't remember the name... Worn it to my cousin's wedding

OPI Dim Sum Plum from the Hong Kong Collection. I haven't got the hang of this yet. This was around May 2010 I think. Worn this to Jayapura after my final project's presentation.

OPI Suzi Says Feng Shui, also from the Hong Kong collection, worn for my birthday *yay* the base and top coat is a two-in-one from Revlon. Not a good one, sadly, it creates those ugly bubbles. And I painted too close to the cuticle which made it even worse. but it looks good on my birthday pictures, fortunately :P

The ever-so-lovely OPI Dulce de Leche from the South American collection, this is my favorite for ever and ever. And I wear it so often, I almost run out of it. I always wear this to job interviews (yes, I'm still searching, count me in ur prayers, guys :D) My mom loves this one too, once we were bengong2 at home and I did her manicure with this, she said it made her hand looks cleaner. I first saw Dulce de Leche in InStyle magazine, recommended by Lauren Conrad. I was really curious and decided to order it, glad I did, it's so nice!

OPI Over the Taupe from the Bright Pair collection. I wore this on my way to Holland last July, but I didn't bring the polish with me. I only brought Dulce de Leche. This is very nice for autumn, actually. And it applies so easily.

OPI Tickle My France-y from La Collection de France. Most people love this cuz it's the perfect neutral. But personally I prefer Dulce de Leche cuz it's neutral with a tad more color. Retno said I own many beti (beda tipis/close-similar looking) colors ahahaha but I think they're different. And I must mention that Dulce de Leche is easier to apply, tho doesn't mean Tickle is difficult. But still! This is also my friend Dwi's favorite :))

ORLY Solid Gold from the Metal Chic collection. This dries matte. See? I have a matte finish polish. It's a matte glitter so although matte polishes shouldn't be covered with shiny top coat, I love layering this with Seche. It looks like SOLID GOLD ^0^ and altho it's beautiful and easy to apply, it's also easily chipped. I think it's the kind of polish that you wear one time for a party then have to watch it chip the next day. I still like it but I don't reach for it often, maybe next party (when? ahahhaa)

Essie Playa del Platinum from the Resort 2010 collection. This one is a somewhat mouse-y grey. I think it's not totally grey, it has a beige touch and I like it for a neutral. Most of the Essie polishes I tried are runny, but this is not so hard to apply. But of course the easiest to apply Essie polish is Red Nouveau. So nice, only need one coat. I think this one's also office appropriate.

OPI The Show Must Go On from the Burlesque collection. It was said to be a dupe of MAC Bad Fairy, and even tho they're quite close, it's not an exact dupe. And I don't own MAC Bad Fairy, due to... it being out of stock and I heard that it's a pain to apply too (I dunno tho, don't hate me, MAC!) :P I think this color is nicer for pedicure. It stands out and has a duochrome effect, which means it changes with the light, tho not as visible as ORLY Space Cadet. In case you're wondering, the book in the picture is Rick Riordan's The Lost Hero (random)

Haha these are Face Shop polishes. I called this candy-colored manicure and I loved it! I removed it cause I had a job interview and changed it to (guess what) Dulce de Leche. Face Shop polishes are okay, sometimes need many layers but overall nice. With that price tag, it's very nice, especially the darker colors.

This is the pic of my nail polish box around November 2010

My Christmas manicure! This was ORLY Royal Navy from In The Navy collection topped with China Glaze Party Hearty from the Tis the Season to be Naughty and Nice collection (reaaaallly long collection name, should just call it Christmas collection) Even tho Party Hearty is kinda tacky, I still love it cuz it's so Christmassy. I gave China Glaze polishes for Christmas gifts, too, I love it :)) they have so many polishes in every collection...

ORLY Space Cadet from the Cosmic FX collection. MAC copied this duochrome (yes, ORLY's came out first) in their Venomous Villains collection, theirs was called Mean & Green and belonged to Maleficent. I love to look at my nails while wearing this, so many colors captured it's exciting!

This was quite recent, in January, OPI Teenage Dream from the Katy Perry collection. Most people went for the Black Shatter but this was the first one that caught my attention. So beautiful pink glitter... Too bad it's quite a pain to remove. But whenever it chips, you can cover the chipped part and it won't be visible haha tricky...

This is the same polish, with difference in the finger. LOL :D

This is OPI Diva of Geneva from the Swiss Collection. Bought back in Europe with my lame excuse "I have no autumn-colored polish!" :D It applies so easily and mostly only need one coat, I just use two coats to make me feel more... secure? I love this color and when I chipped it a little, it makes me crazy (yes, wanna remove it and re-apply... meh... +___+)

Hihihi this was a small project from last week. I call it Hanna Marin's manicure. Yes, it was inspired by Hanna Marin of Pretty Little Liars. Back in the 'Know Your Frenemies' episode, I really like her manicure. And that's saying much cuz I never wanted a black polish. This was Revlon Black Lingerie and Revlon Love That Red. Black Lingerie is kinda sheer but not so difficult to layer, and Love That Red is definitely a lovely red, it's so easy to apply! And I love that both are creme finish. This was my right hand, on the left, only the ring finger's nail was painted red.

This was not a very good pic, Washington snapped it for me :P But see her nails? Black and red creme that was! :D

Essie Tart Deco from the Art of Spring 2010 collection. I got this back on March 2010 but I only tried it few days ago. It was quite easy to apply for an Essie polish, and I don't have any other color like this. But that's maybe because I don't really like it. Too orange for my liking. I tried a different top coat for this, which is Sally Hansen Mega Shine Extended Wear Top Coat (usually I wear Seche Vite) and I like how it looks.

This is my current manicure. OPI Got a Date To-Knight from the Princess Charming Collection. I love this polish's name, so cute. Applying this needs patience, it's very sheer, I needed about four or five coats. But after it's done, it made me happy. It's a cute color :)

I don't want to take a pic of my nail polish box for now :P and I don't want to count it, please don't make me. The newest additions are OPI Last Friday Night and China Glaze Sea Spray. I really want to try them but I love my manicure right now (I just had it done this afternoon). Maybe in a week or so I'd try them. By the way, do you think the pink color would be okay for a job interview?

So that's all for now, I have other colors I haven't took photographs of yet haha. Do you have any favorite nail color? Do share in the comments, please :)

Hello, my name is...

2011-02-09T22:19:00.008+07:00

After 3 months of hiatus (yes, I got so lazy and occupied :P) something that I considered as a final blow finally pull me back into posting a blogpost. Sadly to say, my acer 4520 has rested in peace right now. Sometime at the end of last January (after a very important occasion at home) it shut itself down. Actually, the monitor shut itself down. Apparently (this is me and Heri's prediction) the VGA card burnt out. My boyfriend/fiance (yes yes :P) bought the same laptop as mine 3 years ago, before he left for Netherlands. It was the one within our budget and we wanted to buy one because we're going to have a long distance relationship (aside from other reasons of course). Apparently its life span was only 3 years, which was only two years for his, that experienced the same problem just last year.

To make things clear, I brought my dead laptop to an Acer service center. The lady there told me that parts for my model is not produced anymore. To fix it they would have to fly my laptop to Taiwan, where it's made, which would take 1 to 3 months and even with that they couldn't guarantee it will be totally fixed. So apparently I have to let my Acer go, after moving its harddisk out and put it into external HDD.

With everything that happened with my laptop, I have no other computer at home. So getting a new one was inevitable (is this an excuse? but hey I really needed one! :P) I was feeling happy and sad at the same time, tbh. So, meet this one...

Hello there!

So finally I replaced my old laptop. This one hasn't got a name. And funny thing about it, earlier today I twit about name ideas for him. Initially I wanted to name him Washington... after Washington Apples, see? :P So I asked;

Any suggestion of a short nickname for something called Washington? :P

@florettadriana "iton"

@ninamonika "tony"

@poedhz "dub"

Then after @poedhz asked in what context this is about, I told him it's for my laptop, so my sister chimed in

@chezcelle "wonwon"

@chezcelle "wonton"

this is getting really weird, then she came up with weirder ideas knowing it's an Apple

@chezcelle "name it Malang, after Apel Malang"

@poedhz "Granny Smith"

@addictionmaniac "name it Busuk, after Apel Busuk, you can nickname it 'BU'"

@chezcelle "pela, APEL spelled backwards"

Then finally,

@chezcelle "on second thought, WONWON aja deh. Kan laptop gw Harry Potter :P"

Yes, she has an HP laptop, in case you don't get what she's saying.... So i guess instead of name it BUSUK (the worst idea today yet the one made me laughed loudest, thanks to Retno) I would still name it Washington and call it... ehm... Wonwon (seriously!?) this is still open for changes!!!

Surviving LDR

2010-11-08T21:15:00.004+07:00

Before the last three years started, I once wonder whether I would be able to get through this relationship long distance-ly. I've never been in a long distance relationship before, and I wasn't sure of the chances. I know I shouldn't keep my boyfriend from that kind of opportunity. He got a full scholarship for a double degree in Netherlands, and he wouldn't go because his girlfriend asked him to stay? THAT would sound ridiculous. But the last two years of our relationship, we're always together. We're in the same campus, although our majors are different. We can arrange to meet after classes, pick up each other to go anywhere. Every weekend we go see a movie, or buy a dvd to watch at home. On schooldays we can have a little date where we could go out and have some KFC Attack to save our money a bit... Being more than 11000 kms apart would definitely change all of that. I think most people would most definitely say no to long distance relationship, but having him long distance apart is my best choice compared to not having him at all...

Then at first I thought, I have family and friends, I can rely on them too, spend time with them. And that's exactly what I did. I am grateful for each and every one of them. I remembered a quote that said something about being grateful for your friends, because unlike family, they didn't have to be there, but they chose to. And I have great friends :) Through the past three years while he was away, I missed him. But it made me cherished my family and friends even more. I guess the term 'jomblo lokal' (which means relatively single, but locally) which once mentioned by my friend, Reinard, is quite right. Cuz on Saturday nights when my in-a-relationship friends went on dates, I don't have any date :P so it could be spent with my friends. And randomly, like today, when my day started quite gloomy, I spent my time with Retno, Tutud and Putu (on the phone with me and Retno, earlier :)) it cheered me up. And tonight I feel happy :)

In case you're reading this, Mr. Anomeus, all of that doesn't mean I am all okay without you.

I still miss him and wishing I am doing this and that with him. And the best feeling is always that one when I get to see him again. Those airport encounters which I don't know how to top. After months apart and dating through skype, the time when I get to hold him again is the best time. If someone asked me about LDR, I'd say I prefer not to. But if that person is worth it, why not? Besides, it can taught you things in the mean time, and lets you see who you can really rely on. I am grateful I have all of them in my life...

Rick Riordan

2010-11-08T10:02:00.002+07:00

I once mentioned Rick Riordan on a previous post :) In that post I shared that I was finishing Percy Jackson series. Now I'm gonna somewhat review his other series. He just came up with two other series, one named The Kane Chronicles and the other Heroes of Olympus.

Let's start with The Kane Chronicles, shall we? The first book is called The Red Pyramid.

Riordan has done it again, another bestseller based on a mythology. This time it's kinda more exotic (just my description :P) cuz it's based on Egyptian Myths. It was firstly published on May 4th, 2010. And the website said the second book is gonna be out in Spring 2011, and the third in 2012.

In this book the main characters are two siblings named Carter and Sadie Kane. The chapters are divided in their different point of views. Sometimes it's Carter who's telling the story, and sometimes it's Sadie. They have different personalities so it's fun to see their different ways of story-telling. In this story, their mother had passed away and Carter followed his dad all around the world for his job as an Egyptian Archaeologist, while Sadie had to stay with their grandparents in England. The adventure started when their Dad disappeared after summoning Osiris (God of the Underworld, like Hades in Greek I guess) , which accidentally let not only Osiris, but also four other children of Geb and Nut to be released. One of them, Set, the God of chaos, wants to reign and caused (guess what) chaos in the present time.

Now it's up to Sadie and Carter to make things right. Although all this time they didn't even know how their Dad is capable of magic, and how they're part of an ancient Egyptian family. They had to learn lots of facts and abilities quickly to survive not only Set, but also the House of Life, which consisted all the magicians who considered both of them dangerous as they can be possessed by the Gods. In the end, it wasn't only about beating Set, it's about relationship between the House of Life and the Gods, the Kane family relationship, and trusting friends they met along the way.

It's a very fun book! The same excitement as when I read Percy Jackson for the first time. It made you want to learn about Egyptian myths and their Gods (Hello, Wikipedia...) and the stories behind them. I think Rick Riordan knew that the formula he used for Percy could be used for another set of series :P And I'm glad he did, it's very interesting and I think it could educate children as well in terms of history.

The other one is Heroes of Olympus series, the first book is called The Lost Hero.

To be honest I haven't finished this book, I'm only halfway through it. So far it's also as interesting as the other Riordan's. It was firstly published on October 12, 2010. The website so far listed four more books, which is going to be released in fall yearly until 2014. And unlike, The Kane Chronicles, the second book title is already known, which is The Son of Neptune.

In The Lost Hero our main characters consisted of three teenagers, Jason, Piper and Leo. It was all started in some kind of delinquent camp, which Jason found himself simply being there without any memory of how he got there. Then the three of them got picked up to join Camp Half-Blood, which is missing their Percy Jackson. See, it's somewhat a spin-off of Percy Jackson.

So in the camp Leo and Piper were claimed by their Olympus parent. And out of a new great prophecy, they have to go on a quest to free Hera, who apparently had stolen Jason's memory.

I haven't finished this one so I can't write much about it. So far the "new" thing I found is there are two forms of the Gods, which is their Greek and Roman form. They have slightly different personalities, as Hera or as Juno, for example. And in this book, of course, some new Gods who hadn't appear in Percy Jackson made their way to the story. I wonder how many Gods there in the Olympus, must be kinda crowded ha ha.

I would write more once I've finished the book. But the point is, Riordan has made it to my permanent list! :D With Kinsella and Albom, I'm gonna search whenever he released a new book ahahaa... I guess that's it for now, gonna turn my attention to Lost Hero for the time being :*

Lack of Excitement

2010-11-08T09:44:00.003+07:00

Hi there, this is going to be a somewhat diary-like post. Right now I'm back in Jakarta after a short trip to Jayapura. It was a rare chance that all of us (mom, dad, sis and me) could all gather there. I wasn't going to go home unless I got an interview call (Yes, right now I'm looking for a job). So I stayed for about a week til the phone finally rings for an interview call. So far I've been to three, out of eight calls.

It's not like I'm not grateful for all of those. But lately I feel a lack of excitement going on. My friends who were also looking for job, as I still do, now already got one. While I'm still here. I also know that you shouldn't always look up, but look down as well that maybe not everyone is as lucky as you are. It's better than always comparing to the one who got better. I know, and again, doesn't mean I'm not grateful. But I don't know how to confront this. Just feels kinda drab lately. Aside from job, I couldn't do anything about my master program enrollment because I don't know the exact time I could do it. Everything is intertwined in my timeline and I found that I have to wait to continue preparing for anything. Firstly because IF I finally got a job, I need to know how long the contract will keep me, it would determine other important dates. So since right now I have none, I'm just here, waiting by the phone for an interview or, God knows, someone to actually hire me :)

Let's go out and have fun then?

No, shouldn't spend so much money when you can't make any... *sigh*

Where are you, full-spirited me!? up up up!

Amateur Lyrics Translator

2010-11-01T22:44:00.005+07:00

Lately this song has came up in the radio over and over again, and to be honest I like it. It's emotional and delivered really well by her. This is the video, Agnes Monica's Karna Ku Sanggup

When I watched the video above, there's a comment asking for its English translation. And I figure, why not? (you know, I don't have a job right now... :P) And first, I only wrote the meaning of each line in English, but what's the fun in that? So I tried to listen to it more carefully, count the syllable, and although this 'final' draft's words might not be so beautifully read, try singing it, you can match it with the rhythm :P please pardon the limited vocabulary, I can't thesaurus every word, otherwise I'd be Joey :D and since it's for a song, I skipped grammatical errors :P

Let me lay my hand on you,

provide me with that feeling

Your embrace, once back then,

belonged just to me

Powerless to demand you

to stay here right by my side

Although you are the one who always hurt me

with everything that you've done

However now you can just leave

and don't ever regret

Cause I am able although I don't want to

Standing here by myself without you

I want you never to hesitate just leave me alone

if that is the way that it should be

Not so sure I’ll be able

to erase my hurt and pain

i have always fight for our love

but I wonder what it is that I’ve done wrong

Which made me not worth any of your sincerity

baby now let you go, now leave me alone

broken heart, tear me apart

i don't need ur mercy, ain't again ur lady

and this melody...

did u hear it, let's shout it again, take me back to reffrain

Cause I am able although I don't want to

Standing here by myself without you

I want you never to hesitate just leave me alone

if that is the way that it should be

There's no need to try and make me understand
Go ahead smile cause i am okay

This is what some people labeled as 'kurang kerjaan' :D but I enjoyed doing this tonight.

About Feeding Expectation

2010-10-22T17:09:00.000+07:00

"I learned that feeding expectation is the mother of frustration. We are who we are. And there is nothing to prove to anyone." Diana Rikasari

Random List

2010-10-07T23:29:00.003+07:00

Hihi I just went through my Filofax and found an old note titled Make Up Checklist.

See them over there? Sorry for the blurry picture, I took it with my webcam without thinking about the lighting so... meh. :P

In case you can't read it, these are the items I wrote on the list;

MAC Viva Glam Lady Gaga

Stila Lip Glazes: which color? (I wrote that they cost 12$ for 6 and 25$ for 8)

MUFE loose powder (almost run out)

TRY your smudge pot + Sajama

MAC blush (is it good)

BRUSH : MAC 129, eyeliner

STILA CONVERTIBLE COLOR (I don't get why I wrote it in all caps, maybe I meant it to look technical, or I just really wanted to get it that time :P)

CONCEALER for Andi (My friend who said he wanted to find a good concealer)

BURT'S BEES LIP BALM

Try: UD 24/7 Eyeliner, Stila Kajal, Stila

Compared to then, now I can comment on some of those things I listed :D

MAC Viva Glam Gaga, I think I wanted to get it because of the review in TiffanyD, but then I think I don't really want a blue based pink. Gotta admit that most of my lip colors are peach, so that cool toned pink... maybe not now :)

Stila Lip Glazes, I've tried. I think they are too sticky, I like NYX's better especially for the price. And also because NYX's are more creme, not too sheer like Stila's. I ended up thinking it doesn't really matter which color I picked, it doesn't show so much :)

MUFE loose powder I currently stop buying, I don't think it's irreplaceable

Smudge pot and Sajama, smudge pot I've tried and love, but my Sajama is still untouched. I wonder how did that SA in Sephora Hong Kong wear Sajama with cobalt blue smudge pot. I want to try!

MAC blush, I've got one right now in Peachykeen from my mom :D it is a beauty and I think more pigmented than NARS Orgasm...? I just love peach colored stuff because it's always a safe choice for me hehe..

Brush, I got 129SE right now, use it for blushes. And as for eyeliner, I got one included in my Stila smudge pot trio from my sister on my last birthday :)

Stila Convertible Color, haven't got enough courage to buy cream blush for my oily face, and it's a good thing considering how much they're priced ^^

Concealer... haha haven't even put a lot of thought into it with my friend, Andi. I guess I would recommend NYX's

Burt's Bees Lip Balm, already mine, use it EVERY DAY.

As for the try part, I haven't got any of them, I wanted UD 24/7 (I already held Zero in Paris...) but I think for now my Aqua Eyes is enough :)

Out of Europe

2010-10-05T13:34:00.020+07:00

So finally I get a chance to take pictures of the stuff I bought when I was in Europe for two months. It's very tempting to buy many because Sephora was only 7 tram stops away. Honestly, I sometimes decide to stay home because I'm scared I would buy something out of the blue if I go to the centrum. (I hope my bf isn't reading this :P) But of course, one couldn't spend all money on make up (amen to that) so here are some things I bought while I was there.

everything in one pic

The first one (I order them chronologically :P well, as much as I can remember) was this Too Faced Natural Eye palette. I mentioned it in an earlier post. I got them on sale in Sephora. And I said that I haven't done much with my eyes, usually all I need is eyeliner. So this is quite new for me, and I think the idea of a natural eye fascinates me.

The unopened box

The box opened, my boyfriend said it looks like a small cupboard :)

The colors close up. cute but only 3 mattes :)

I haven't used this (haven't bought the TFSI haha) but maybe I would post it if I get a chance to try them.

Second are three bottles of nail polishes. Actually the OPI Diva of Geneva came last, while Essie Turqoise and Caicos and OPI Do You Lilac It? were bought together on a trip to Dusseldorf. When I came to Holland I only brought one bottle of polish with me, which is OPI Dulce de Leche. It's my favorite neutral color (tho I like Tickle My France-y, too, but Dulce de Leche is more peach) but when I arrived it was at the end of summer, and I want happy colors hehehe... I like turqoise&caicos but honestly Do You Lilac It is easier to apply. Turqoise&Caicos is runnier, but once you had them on nicely coated with Seche, they stay long enough. I remembered wearing them for about two weeks.

As for OPI Diva of Geneva, it's one of OPI Swiss Collection. I decided to buy it cuz it's closing to autumn and my wardrobe has turned to darker colors, therefore I wiped the Turqoise off and put this on. It's a great color, I don't have many color like that. I like that it's purple but not on the vampy side. It's very ladylike I think :P kinda glam-ish color.

Diva of Geneva, Turqoise&Caicos, Do You Lilac It?

After that comes MAC Studio Fix. I bought this because my Maybelline Minerals caused a break out. I don't know if it's just that or also the weather or something, but I asked my sister for something to replace it, and she recommended this. My shade is NC35, and so far it has done great for me :) enough for daily use. Last week I went to a wedding and I layer this on top of my mat velvet+ loving it. Later in the trip I bought BareMinerals matte, but so far I think it caused a little break out for me... So I'm sticking to this studio fix right now.

MAC Studio Fix NC35

Then I also bought a brush cleanser from Make Up For Ever. Funny cuz I only have few brushes. But back then when that Maybelline was causing my break out, I thought it might be my brushes, so I bought this to clean them.

On the last weeks of my trip, I went to Paris. They just released the new Bare Minerals Matte there (Holland's Sephora didn't have them) and I decided to try them. I only bought the base, not the whole starter kit because they don't have the starter kit in Matte formula. Also because I already have the brush for this (EDM Flat top of course :))

What I like about BM is that they have that click-lock-and go packaging. It reduces the possibility of spilling. Everyday Minerals also have it in their packaging but not as good as this. But despite the lovely packaging, I think (as I already mentioned) it caused me to break out a lil. I still love using it once in a while but right now I use Studio Fix more often.

See that click-lock-go thingie? it works :P

Also in Paris, I bought Philosophy Purity made simple. I've been wanting to try this for quite a while hehe... I finally got a hold on it *sinister laugh* I absolutely love this because it gets rid of all your make up, no need to separate the eye make up remover, cleanser, toner, lalala. I can just wash my face with this, and the eyeliner, mascara, foundation, lip colors, go clean. Altho I noticed that you need more of it to get rid of liquid foundation and mascaras, but so far I love it. I just wish I won't run out of it so quickly.

Then, the final week before I got back home, I went to Sephora one more time and finally buy Too Faced Aqua Bunny that I've been eye-ing since the first time I got there ahaha... I've never used bronzer before, honestly, but this got some great reviews and I gotta say I'm sold so I gave up and buy it (actually, he bought it for me, he said better buy now than be bothered by it later :P)

It has a cute smell, vanilla or something

Comes with a brush!

On the same day I also came across this cute Leopard Love palette also by Too Faced, which consisted three pans; Peach Leopard, Candy Leopard and Pink Leopard. It's meant to be a highlighter, blush and bronzer in a package, but I haven't tried it that way (haven't tried any of them :P) and some reviews I came across said that it doesn't really do the job that way. Anyways they're cute together and on discount for half price, so I think I can make use of them :P (impulsive? ehm...)

Peach Leopard - Candy Leopard - Pink Leopard

Instructions for use :P

Then, lastly there are two more things that weren't bought in Europe. I bought them in Dubai during my flight's transit hours. After passing MAC counter over and over again, I gave in and bought one plushglass and one lipglass. I didn't really know which color I should pick, so with wi-fi connection there I browsed MUA and wanted to pick Enchantress and Viva Glam VI. Too bad they don't have viva glam VI, so the SA looked for a similar shade for me and came up with Power Supply. These two I haven't tried on :D

I guess that's all, oh actually I also bought one Viva Glam V lipstick which I forgot to include in the picture :P so... pretty much that's all. I think I would review them once I had a chance to wear any of them, but I don't think I have enough confidence and skill to do that ahahhaa...

My guy

2010-10-03T13:00:00.007+07:00

My guy might not be the best guy in the world,

but he sure is the best for me :)

Of course in relationship you sometime argue and disagree,

but there are things, reasons why he's mine and all mine

I love the sweet little things he does, altho he's not always the lovey-dovey type

When we stopped at the gas station, he gets in the shop to pay,

and come back with a Magnum Strawberry White for me,

just because he thought I'd love it (it looks really cute :P)

When he's at work, just few hours since he left home,

he texted me to say he's already missing me :)

(i don't care if you think it's cheesy, me lovey)

When he said some stupid things, I would laugh, literally at him

And he wouldn't mind, he would laugh with me too

One afternoon after work,

he came home and brought me some pink gerberas, my favorite flowers

and he still said "I try to look for the white ones, but they didn't have it."

When he's mad at the delivery guys for not delivering our sofa to the right floor

(and we had to carry it four stories up)

I sulked because he yelled at me,

then he said "come here give me a hug" and he said sorry

One day I wanted to go to Leiden, aside for looking for school,

I wanna go there because they have Starbucks in Leiden

(only in Leiden, Amsterdam, Utrecht, if i'm not mistaken)

long story short, it caused us a wrong turn and a chat with the police

then he said "Okay, are you happy now you have your Starbucks?"

and we laughed at it days later :)

When I used his phone for two months,

I downloaded many many apps, mostly girly stuff

then he said "This doesn't look like my phone anymore"

But he doesn't delete any of them

When I have to buy a coat cuz the weather's getting colder,

he insisted upon a sporty-looking jacket cuz it's warmer

tho in the end he let me picked that adorable Zara one

He would help me finished all the Kinder Surprise I bought

just so I can have the Smurf toy inside them.

(Maybe this explains why he gets a bit chubbier :P)

Still learning to cook, I forgot to boil the broccoli before putting them to stir fry

He still said it is yummy. (and finished it tho the broccolis should be softer)

Working abroad, he had many chances to go on trips,

but he would save and go with me when we can

Being a part time drama queen, sometimes what I did cause an argument.

He still says sorry first, although it might be initially my fault.

My favorite is when he arrived home, hug me and said

"I miss you all day today"

Of course, nobody is perfect. And you can choose to list their flaws, or you can look at the great things someone do. It might be limitless. And you can't help but stop and be grateful of how blessed you are through this person.

I wonder, you, how can I not love you?

Loneliness

2010-09-30T00:14:00.002+07:00

Today I was blogwalking when I found my high school classmate's blog. I read the latest post and can't help feeling related to it. It was titled Loneliness Relativity;

in there she wrote;

"Sometimes we feel lonely because we are physically all alone at that moment. Other times we are in a crowd, yet we still feel the loneliness. It could be because we dont know anybody in the crowd, or because we know them but we don’t feel comfortable around those people, or maybe it’s simply because we just wish someone else was there with us."

Yes, there could be a large crowd around you and you still feel lonely. And I found that loneliness most often be felt when you wish someone else was there with you. But we can also find a different point of view, try not to focus on that someone else, but try to have fun and get to know the ones we have around us. They might be able to cure the loneliness too :)

But wherever we are, without that special someone beside us, there will always be a whole just their right size, longing to be filled :')

b.o.o.k.s

2010-09-15T15:30:00.001+07:00

inspired by a dear friend of mine, Shasa (click to see her tumblr)

made me remember to write about the books I recently read. Mine is not so sophisticated as hers :P cuz I’m into two categories, children’s or chic-lit :)) maybe that’s saying something about my personality ahahha :))

The last few months I was finishing Percy Jackson series, It consists 5 books so far;

Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief
Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters
Percy Jackson and the Titan’s Curse
Percy Jackson and the Battle of the Labyrinth
Percy Jackson and the Last Olympian

I’ve read all the first four but when I was about to buy the fifth, I made a mistake of re-buying the fourth (stupid) so I kinda forgot about it for quite some time til I decided to order it online just recently (to accompany my flight back to Jakarta later :)) My sister recently twitted that there’s gonna be a sixth book called the Lost Hero, so I’m excited about that too. She’s the one who told me about this series and she’s right it’s very nice :D

Oh and maybe some of you have watched its first movie, too (Logan Lerman!!!) Well, maybe I should write what the books’ about shortly :) It follows the adventure of Percy Jackson, a demigod, which means a child born half human, half God, on each book he’s sent to quest with his friends (whatever the problem is) to solve problems caused by Kronos and his henchman Luke. It’s very nice to read because the author, Rick Riordan, uses many elements of Greek mythology (of course) which makes it interesting, not only about the main story but also the little details that makes you want to google all the names mention there :))

The second series I also read recently is The Mysterious Benedict Society. Right now it’s up to 3 books;

The Mysterious Benedict Society
The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Perilous Journey
The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Prisoner’s Dilemma

It’s written by Trenton Lee Stewart and again I was introduced to this series by my sister :) (she’s currently saving books to read for her children, i guess :P) It’s about a group of children ”hired” by Mr. Benedict to stop his evil twin, Mr. Curtain. The reason I’m attached to this book is because it lets you think and solve the puzzles there also, like a detective story for children. And somehow when I read it I feel very blurry about what’s gonna happen next, like when I read Roald Dahl’s books (I used to read them when I was in jr. high). Just like when you don’t know what to expect when Charlie enters Mr. Wonka’s chocolate factory, that’s the feeling I get when the Benedict’s children got into their adventures. Don’t know what will happen next. Yum!

I’ve read the first two (the Perilous Journey accompanied my flight to Europe), and now the third book is on its way along with the Last Olympian. I ordered them both last week.

Now the next one is a series I have followed since… mmm maybe high school… wow that’s like 8 years ago ahaha… yes it’s Sophie Kinsella’s Shopaholic series;

Confessions of a Shopaholic / The Secret Dreamworld of a Shopaholic
Shopaholic Abroad / Shopaholic Takes Manhattan
Shopaholic Ties the Knot
Shopaholic and Sister
Shopaholic and Baby
Mini Shopaholic

I’ve been in love with this for a long time and I always buy the newest book, tho I don’t have the first two :) It’s about a girl named Rebecca Bloomwood, who is, obviously, a shopaholic. The story firstly started about her trying to work out her debts, as a result of her shopaholic behaviour, and then how she found her Mr. Right named Luke Brandon. She moved to New York for work (as a professional buyer) then married Luke. On the fourth book she found her half sister, Jess, who’s the exact opposite of her (she doesn’t buy, instead she barters, and she’s up for anything green, recycled and so on). Then she got pregnant, and in the last book she’s dealing with her mini shopaholic daughter, Minnie :)

The story made its way to the big screen but I gotta say I don’t really like the movie, Becky looks so stupid in it (played by Isla Fisher) tho the girl who played Suze is very pretty (tho Suze is supposed to be blonde :P)

Right now I’m in the middle of Mini Shopaholic. Bought it two days ago, I just found it randomly, I didn’t know there’s gonna be a new book. I went to Selexyz and Donner to look at magazines and randomly go downstairs and was wondering whether I should buy the other Melissa Nathan book when I found it on the shelf :)) Grabbed it instantly :D and it’s funny and nice as the previous ones :)

Sophie Kinsella is a great chic-lit author, beside Shopaholic series she also wrote stand-alone books;

Can You Keep a Secret?
The Undomestic Goddess
Remember Me?
Twenties Girl

They’re all nice but my most favorite are The Undomestic Goddess and Twenties Girl :) try her books :D

The other one I noticed recently is Melissa Nathan, she wrote a good one titled The Nanny, which I enjoyed as much as reading Kinsella’s novels. I read the “Author” section in the back cover and just knew that she passed away on 2006. And the other novel she wrote is The Waitress and I wanted to read it too :) but yesterday I bought Mini Shopaholic and not that one, so I should buy it later ^^

I think those are the books I read recently, they’re not so heavy to read so I really recommend it :) Oh and one I want to mention but wasn’t recently read is Anthony Capella. I’ve read two books of his, The Food of Love and Wedding Officer. The unique thing about his books is that he always describes flavor in a very detail way, makes you think that the food in the book is very very delicious. He has two more books (I just discovered that in his website); The Various Flavors of Coffee, The Empress of Ice Cream. Both titles mentioned two of my favorite things, I have to buy them later ;)

So that’s all for now I guess, happy reading!

Simply updating

2010-09-07T21:17:00.003+07:00

Nothing really important to write, actually, I'm writing because I'm currently in front of the laptop with nothing to do (aside from waiting for furniture delivery) :)

So... hmmm... 17 days left of my time in Holland, right now several things have changed since I arrived. I wonder where I should start, mmm...

We acquired (weh, acquired??) Audrey, a green metallic love, first time I saw her I thought the color is black, but under the sun it glows a nice dark green :) lovely Audrey.

Then, moving to 3085GR, the home of mostly IKEA furnitures, period. It is small but it's getting lovelier each day. I personally love the dining table, made of wood, ikea-made, but with green spoons forks and knives, black placemat, and a vase with yellow flowers, oh plus the green tree-shaped coasters. My most loved corner :) as for now.

I've found the master program I'd like to attend, and since I've got my parents' approval already, I guess it can be shared (I didn't want to talk much about it previously because I haven't asked them and I would be sad if I wrote about it then have to say I didn't get permission :P) I'm gonna try applying for Art History in Architecture in Leiden University. It's been my favorite subject throughout my bachelor years. And I decided to pursue it. I wanted to apply for interior design, but to be honest I'm more interested in educator track instead of practitioner. And I think this one suits me best :) wish me luck, okay? :))

What else... mmm I learn to cook, well not exactly learning, simply searched for recipes in the internet and cook them. I'm not good at cooking, and I prefer baking (which couldn't be done here because my bf's oven is broken :P) but now I can cook some simple dishes. You know, stir fried, anything with oyster sauce :) I have some easy recipes if you need it :D but then the easiest and one of the yummiest is the 15 minute pasta (from allrecipes) it's very easy and you don't really need to measure anything, just put as much as you want.

Well, tho you dont really need to measure, here's the original recipe:

Ingredients

455 g dry pasta

(fettuccine, spaghetti, macaroni, fussili, anything)

15 g butter

170 g diced cooked ham

(or smoked beef)

475 ml heavy cream

(as in whipped cream)

80 g grated parmesan cheese

(or any cheese, i usually bought the one labeled pasta cheese in AH :P)

Steps

Bring a large pot of lightly salted water to a boil. Add pasta, cook for 8 to 10 mins or until al dente, drain.

In a medium sauce pan over medium heat, melt butter. Stir in ham and cook for 1 minute. Stir in cream and heat through. Stir in parmesan and cook until thick and smooth. Toss with cooked pasta.

It couldn't get easier than that! :D oh and I usually add some mushrooms simply because I like them :) usually the same amount as the ham, and I love to add more cream or cheese, cuz they make the sauce thicker and yummier :)) it's very easy especially because here they sell the mushrooms already chopped, and whipped cream (which is usually in an aerosol can :P) in a cup of 500 ml. Easier to spoon, which makes this recipe even quicker to serve :) And honestly you don't need to measure it so it matches the recipe, just put as much as you want ^^

Well now I'm blabbing about past :) Mmm I guess this is my updates for now, I'd write again later. Gotta go buy some ingredients for dinner :) xoxo

Now and then

2010-09-06T16:45:00.002+07:00

I was flicking through my profile pictures folder in facebook, and suddenly wanted to post the first and the current one :)

Here they are:

The first one, uploaded on November 22nd, 2007

taken in Baskin Robbin's Mal Taman Anggrek

The current one, uploaded on September 6th, 2010

taken in IKEA Delft's restaurant&cafe

Three years have gone by, I got chubbier *sigh* (well, in both pics I was eating something ahahaha), my hair got longer (which I love :)), I got new pair of glasses, and I guess the quality of the camera improved (the first one was taken by a cellphone camera). I hope the later is happier, cuz you should be happier today than yesterday, right? :)) so random, this post is.

Too Faced Natural Eye Kit

2010-08-26T14:26:00.005+07:00

So... finally a new post :D

On this one I would like to show you a palette I bought recently in Sephora. Before that I guess I have to shortly state that I can reach Sephora right now cuz I'm currently on holiday in Europe (mostly Holland) and Sephora is like 7 tram stations away :) but I know I can't expect them to have cheaper price than US' store. But the last few weeks Sephora was holding a 25% all make-up promotion. Makes me happy, of course, but I noticed some of the products are marked up first, sadly. Like the Bare Minerals Starter Kit which originally costed 65 euros, now it's 76.50 euros, so after discount will be like 57 euros, cheaper yes, but still, I took that as cheating +_+

Back to the title, one thing that gets my attention was Too Faced Natural Eye Kit. Originally (or marked-up-ly) 39.99 euros, after discount it's 30 euros. I checked the US website, and they're selling this kit for 35 usd, and in Indonesia, via online shopping, it's about 475,000 idr. So I think it's worth it (esp after consulting my sister), tho I was hesitant because... see I'm not good at eye make up. I usually just put base, a lil concealer if I feel like it, blush, eyeliner (to make my eyes slightly bigger :P) and lip gloss. That's about it.

But considering the price I went ahead and buy it :)

These are the kit's pic from sephora website

It comes with 9 shades of eye shadows with cute names;

Heaven

Velvet Revolver

Sexpresso

Silk Teddy

Push-Up

Erotica

Nude Beach

Honey Pot

Cocoa Puff

Also a little brush (very small one :D) to apply it. And three cards to teach you how to wear the colors, especially designed by Too Faced Creative Director, Jerrod Blandino (who?)

This is a pic I took with my phone (my current phone, not all mine :P) the colors from the top left to right. Heaven (matte ivory), Velvet Revolver (matte taupe), Sexspresso (matte deep brown), Silk Teddy (peach champagne shimmer), Push-Up (light bronze shimmer), Erotica (soft charcoal shimmer), Nude Beach (champagne shimmer with gold glitter), Honey Pot (gold shimmer), Cocoa Puff (warm chocolate brown shimmer)

I think it'd be a nice starter for me, I'm thinking of purchasing the Too Faced Shadow Insurance Policy Kit, which is a bargain because you get their Shadow Insurance primer and 6 big shadows and also their Aqua Bunny cream-to-powder bronzer, both products got high scores in Make Up Alley. Argh. Well I guess that's it for now, I will write another post once I got to wear these babies, or not if I'm too embarassed ahahha... Have a nice day :*

My Take on Maybelline Clear Smooth Minerals

2010-04-01T23:08:00.005+07:00

close-up pic of Maybelline Clear Smooth Minerals Powder Foundation

Ok I can't provide any pics (of me) cuz I'm not so confident about it and I'm not a good reviewer since my vocabulary is limited :P

I've tried Maybelline Clear Smooth Minerals for two days and for the first one, well it stayed put but since my skin is oily, I don't think it's doing anything more than what AngelFit does. I noticed that it stayed put a little longer and since it's powder it feels lighter on skin and doesn't look cakey. With the rough kabuki it goes okay, not streaky (tho, yes, the brush doesn't feel very nice touching my face), and I found that I can also use it to apply my blush, very nicely since it's not too big. And with the circular motion, the blush can blend more naturally and can always be lighten with the minerals to achieve more natural color.

This is the "exclusive" kabuki brush, i think you can feel the roughness just by looking

Again, since I have oily skin, I noticed that it easily comes off when i rub my face. Kinda freaked me out a bit. So I need to re-apply it. But I guess it'd be alright if I don't rub my face too hard. I think this foundation/powder covered my pores nicely but not really helping with my oily skin type. Tho with the blended blush I feel like a porcelain doll hehehehe. I think I'm gonna use it for daily wear (to save my everyday minerals base) and I won't mind re-applying til I found better and cheaper minerals for daily use.

Pros: covers pores, blendable, nice finish, good-sized brush for blushes
Cons: not helping oily skin, easily comes off, rough brush

Happy 25th!

2010-03-30T08:55:00.005+07:00

Today my sister is turning 25!

Happy Birthday, Sis!

This is our photo together from our eurotrip,

on a gondola with santa claus junior on our back ;)

I wish you all the best (yes, cliche :P)

and hoping to meet you soon on ur graduation day this may ^_^

love you! XOs

Melinda

PS: visit my sis' blog here

Just a small haul ;P

2010-03-29T22:00:00.010+07:00

So here we go, finally a new blog post hehehe...

Maybe just a short one since I really should be doing my 3d work right now :P

Well today I went to the department store to buy nail polish remover. I bought revlon's for practical reason (and also for the price), was planning to buy Skin Food's but I didn't go there today so I decided to give Revlon's a try. While I'm there I also bought Maybelline's Clear Smooth Minerals. I am a daily user of Maybelline AngelFit and I know some people said it doesn't have good coverage, but I still use it cuz it fits my skin tone tho I also realize that it comes off easily (unless I pair it with MUFE All Mat+ Foundie and Super Matte Loose Powder, but then again the two works well without AngelFit :P) . But since I need something for everyday use and AngelFit is enough for me (in terms of price, coverage and tone), I keep on refilling mine. But since they released their mineral collection here, I'm curious to try, also cuz it won some awards (yea i'm a sucker for awards hahaha) from Oprah and Self Health Beauty Awards.

Maybelline Mineral Power Natural Perfecting Powder Foundation

Revlon's, Maybelline's, Essie's and London Snow Globe (no, not part of the haul)

I can't do any review since I haven't put it on my skin (unless you count testing it on the back of my arm, which is nicely covered for now ;)) but my first thought about this was for the (so-called) exclusive kabuki brush included in the package. I'm sorry but for something exclusive this brush feels so rough... But then again it comes with a nice price and since I already have an Ecotools Kabuki, I don't mind. I'd still try to use this brush just to test it :)

The polish remover, which I also haven't used still has a smell like my previous polish remover, but subtler. I hope it'd do mercy on the dry skin around my nails :P

The other ones on the pic are my Essie mini Art of Spring 2010. The set includes four (from their six spring shades) polishes which is Tart Deco, Pop Art Pink, Lilacism and Red Nouveau. You can see the swatches done by Scrangie here. As for me I've only tried Pop Art Pink and Lilacism. Lilacism is more watery than Pop Art Pink but both gives nice full coverage for three coats. I love how the colors turn out, squishy milky colors. I'm wearing pop art pink on my left hand and lilacism on my right haha... I think it looks like baby girl and baby boy... Cute <3

This is Pop Art Pink

My two hands :P

And this is Lilacism

Yes I don't have beautiful long nails hahaha but I keep it quite neat and comfortable. I hope I'd get them long and nice enough for my sis' graduation and my cousin's wedding. I'm thinking about some nail colors for those two days.. Oh and for the nails I used O.P.I's Chip Skip, Nail Envy and then Essie's Polish, then O.P.I's RapiDry TopCoat. But after a few minutes I applied Revlon Double Twist Instant Base&Top Coat. I think it offers the same quality of coating with easier application than O.P.I's (plus it's way cheaper too)

That's it for now :D I hope I wrote enough to make you want Essie's too hehehe... ;)

inside my make up bag

2010-02-24T10:43:00.010+07:00

Hahaha I know this is not an important post, keeping in mind that I don't have so many make up products. These are the ones I have so far..

from right to left upper line:

maybelline angelfit shade BO2, sana pore putty make up base, make up forever supermatte loose powder shade 12, clinique blended face powder transparency 3, make up forever mat velvet+ 35, nyx powder blush 05 pinky, mac palette, banana boat aloe vera lip balm, nyx round lipstick thalia, nyx round lipstick rosebud, nyx mega shine lipgloss in tea rose, make up forever glossy full couleur (extreme shine lip gloss), maybelline great lash blackest black, maybelline cat eyes mascara, stila matte eye shadow in sajama

from right to left lower line:

revlon powder blush matte in blushing berry, nars orgasm, nyx sheer gloss in rose, revlon colorstay eyeliner in black, make up forever aqua eyes in 1L, the body shop sharpener, stila smudge pot in cobalt

brushes:

ecotools baby kabuki, the body shop blush brush, ecotools mineral powder brush, ecotools concealer brush, ecotools eye shading brush

If you consider this "many" then I guess you should peek my sis' blog here. She bought lotsa stuff, mine is very little compared to hers :D wehehehhe

And what I wear everyday is only the essentials, such as make up base (Sana), powder (maybelline or clinique's), lip balm (banana boat), lip gloss (nyx) and I'm ready to go. But on special occasions I add mat velvet+, blush (mac, nars or nyx), some eyeliner (aqua eyes) and mascara (maybelline's) (oops I forgot to take picture of the eyelash curler... forgive me, shu ;))

I don't have any extraordinary items cuz, honestly, I don't know how to use them... So so far these are my essentials++ and I usually focus in finding base products with nice coverage since I have oily face and pore problems :P so far mat velvet+ works fine but I don't use it too much cuz I have to save quite some money to buy it...

For now, I'm really interested in Bare Escentuals' Bare Minerals... I should stop obsessing about this product cuz they don't have it here in Indonesia (except at online shops in fashionesedaily) maybe I should remember to check on them in Sephora next time I get to go to Singapore (yes, very close yet very far >_<)

This is their starter kit... Costs 60 usd for 174 usd value... But still, even though it's reduced price, doesn't mean you don't spend anything, right? Mmmmhh.... Oh and here's their trademarked swirl, tap, buff. This is how you use their bare minerals foundation... :)

This is it so far, I think I better get a little more detailed later... Oh and this post is dedicated to Diatri Kamaratih and her cute blog If You Want to be Happy, Be! cuz she asked me about the basic products yesterday when we went out for sushi hehehehe...

Miss P's Giveaway

2010-02-24T09:02:00.002+07:00

Yay for giveaway!

Miss P from Miss P's Guide to All Things Beautiful is having a giveaway in celebration of the blog's 200+ followers! Aside from the gifts and all, follow her blog too :) I think it's always fun to follow someone who reviews products (i gotta say, especially the ones living in US as it's easier for them to get some products there) so... what are you waiting for? :)

Here's what the winner will get...

Awh I'd love to get a hold on those sonia kashuk's brush

(since I am currently searching for a new blush brush)...

The Other Side of the Door

2010-02-15T13:53:00.005+07:00

In the heat of the fight I walked away

Ignoring words that you were saying
Trying to make me stay
I said, 'This time I've had enough'
And you've called a hundred times
But I'm not picking up
Cause I'm so mad I might tell you that it's over
But if you look a little closer

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window throwing pebbles
Screaming, 'I'm in love with you'
Wait there in the pouring rain, come back for more
And don't you leave cause I know
All I need is on the other side of the door

Me and my stupid pride are sitting here alone
Going through the photographs, staring at the phone
I keep going back over things we both said
And I remember the slamming door and all the things that I misread
So babe if you know everything, tell me why you couldn't see
When I left I wanted you to chase after me

Yeah, I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window throwing pebbles
Screaming, 'I'm in love with you'
Wait there in the pouring rain, come back for more
And don't you leave cause I know
All I need is on the other side of the door

And I'll scream out the window
I can't even look at you
I don't need you but I do, I do, I do
I say, "There's nothing you can say to make this right
I mean it, I mean it"
What I mean is

I said, "Leave," but baby all I want is you
To stand outside my window throwing pebbles
Screaming, 'I'm in love with you'
Wait there in the pouring rain, come back for more
And don't you leave cause I know
All I need is on the other side of the door

With your face and the beautiful eyes
And the conversation with the little white lies
And the faded picture of a beautiful night
You carry me from your car to the stairs
And I broke down crying, was she worth this mess?
After everything and that little black dress
After everything I must confess, I need you

Ah, reading these lyrics kinda made me wonder whether every girl's like that.. :) sometimes we do say "leave" but all we wanted was to be chased after, for them boys to show us one more time how much we are loved, wanted and needed. ;)

what happens when you cry

2010-02-15T13:00:00.004+07:00

picture from here

I found this when I googled about the title

" one study collected both reflex tears and emotional tears (after peeling an onion and watching a sad movie, respectively). When scientists analyzed the content of the tears, they found each type was very different. Reflex tears are generally found to be about 98 percent water, whereas several chemicals are commonly present in emotional tears First is a protein called prolactin, which is also known to control breast milk production. Adrenocorticotropic hormones are also common and indicate high stress levels. The other chemical found in emotional tears is leucine-enkephalin, an endorphin that reduces pain and works to improve mood. Of course".

So I guess when someone cries, they are in high stress level and need to cry to improve their mood.

Whew...

Ah, be very careful not to make someone cry... Apparently it's quite a responsibility ;)

One of the best moments this year

2009-12-15T22:53:00.003+07:00

Some pics from my 22nd birthday which occurred in 5th of June, 2009. But the celebration was held on 6th so I put the date on this pic. I remember being very happy that day. Contrary to previous' year's birthday (Not that I wasn't thankful about it :))

I have so many loved ones with me celebrating my birthday... What more can a birthday girl ask for?

I'm thinking about re-posting some 2009 moments before the end of the year :) I hope I'd be able to do so...

totally random

2009-12-06T21:52:00.003+07:00

Yes, you are definitely my most favorite person!

screen-to-screen relationship

2009-12-03T09:11:00.003+07:00

There are times when long distance got quite unbearable

When the other person is so busy, you think you better not stand in their way

When that person is (you know) not so busy, you want them to spend their time with you

But what can you really do when you are just a bunch of pics and letters on screen..

They're not suppose to spend their day with that screen.

Awh sorry for the sad thoughts. I'd edit this later :)

My Top 5 Ice Cream Flavors

2009-12-02T14:47:00.014+07:00

Hmmmm... to tell you the truth it is very hard for me to write this post. Since I'm a big fan of ice cream (well, actually, creamS, all kinds of creamy stuff). And right now I'm supposed to be doing my assignment but, you know, people needs break once in a while (which I've been doing for, say, the last 3 hours... hope my mom and dad don't read this hahaha)

So here's my top 5 ice cream flavor. As for reason I post this... no, nobody tagged me or anything. I just want to write about it since approx. last week there's a question in Facebook's Friends Exposed that said, "If you could live with just one kind of food for the rest of your life, what is it gonna be?" (or something like that...) and after deep thinking (yea rite :D) I think... ice cream... So to honor the one food i can stand eating for the rest of my life, here it is, not really food, not really drinks... My favorite... *drumroll* ice creams!

To be honest it's so hard to put it in order. Which one last and which one first, cuz I just love them. But I tried and came up with this...

At number 5, we have Baskin Robbins' Chocolate Chip. I think you can't go wrong with this one. Well i mean if you're gonna give it to me :P I've been a fan of this flavor since my childhood. Well actually it was my dad's favorite and he always convinced me to pick this one. Then as I grew older, I find myself really love this flavor. The vanilla flavor is sweet but the chocolate bits are a bit bitter. It tastes just like life, bittersweet (hahahah woot)... Oh and maybe this was also the reason whenever I go to any ice cream place I've just knew, I always order chocolate chip or 'straciatella'.. Always a safe choice, yumm...

now at the 4th place we have Baskin Robbins' Jamoca Almond Fudge. Almost all members of my family love this flavor. Whenever we get to pick just a flavor to be brought home, we always pick this one. It has coffee-ish flavored with almond bits. It's not too sweet, adding reasons why the elder members of our family love it too. If chocolate chip can never go wrong with me, this one can never go wrong for (maybe) my entire family :D As for me, I usually add some chocolate jimmies if I have this at home. Yea I love things sweet like that :))

At the third place is Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Macadamia. To be honest I've only tasted my first b&j around last january in Singapore. But I didn't taste this one. This one was me and my sis' favorite during our eurotrip. I remember having a small one while walking in amsterdam... and took a pic with its advertisement (since it was quite new at that time) in Nice. The ice cream tastes nice but the best part is the macadamias... They're so big (not cut into little bits) and covered with CHOCOLATE.... awhhh tastes so nice... i miss eating this one :'(

Now at the second place, we have Häagen-Dazs' Choc Choc Chip. When I was a kid and had to pick flavors at Häagen-Dazs, I picked this one cuz it resembled the one I like in Baskin Robbins. But this one is all chocolate-y with bigger bits of chocolate... Hmmmmm... love love love it. As you can see from previous 'winners', I love having something hard to bit inside of the ice cream. I think it makes it funner, like having a surprise and you have to scoop randomly to get them. This one usually has lots of em, with not so big bits (like chocolate macadamia's) but also not as thin as the ones in BR's chocolate chip. Very nice size that made sure you have quite plenty in a cup (say, if you buy it in single scoop size)

Now the first place, as I say it's hard to decide but I ended up putting Häagen-Dazs' Macadamia Nut at the top. It was once my sis' favorite (she bought this, i bought choc choc chip), but when I tasted it, I love how sweet it is. It kinda made me feel nostalgic (yea yea, I'm mellow that way :)) and it has bits of macadamias inside. The nutty flavor kinda complements the sweet creamy ice cream. Oh and it was once labeled Macadamia Nut Brittle, but recently I look for them and they've changed names to Macadamia Nut. I don't add anything to this one cuz i think it's already taste very nice. Oh and two days ago I searched for it but I couldn't find the small ones :( they have the bigger pint in the store but I think it's quite expensive so I didn't buy it.

There you have it, my top 5 ice cream flavors :) If you haven't tried one of them, go ahead and try then give me your comments hehehe... I love writing this post, it was very fun! :)

thing i miss from my trip

2009-11-27T15:25:00.004+07:00

ben&jerry's, i always want some... especially chocolate macadamia

train trips

directions and street names, looking up from a map once in a while

waffle with extra chantilly/slagroom/whipped cream

nice open green space

apfelstrudel, always do

boulevards and night lights

comfy paved walks

breakfast. pancake. again, slagroom

short airplane trips' meal

my sis' sephora haul hahaha

disney meal

this tower

pasta; comparing them to what i have here

trying various menus in haagen dazs

laduree

oh, yes, sephora :D

What is a Friend?

2009-11-22T17:09:00.005+07:00

Sometimes you think of a friend as someone who'd be there in your ups and downs. Someone who knows you inside out and support you whenever you need it.

Today I think I know different.

I believe that I have a friend. A close friend, even. But somehow I don't feel the support. I thought by telling my problems to someone, it would be better. Having someone else's point of view especially someone close. But instead, all I feel right now is cornered. Like being asked questions that leave you no chance to explain. Or else, even starting to explain would be cut by another question.

Yes, I'm not that strong as a person. I'm probably not as strong as you. And, of course, I am not you. Telling me doubts and that you don't believe I'll be brave enough; apparently doesn't help. Right now I feel very small in your eyes and I can't help to regret telling you about my problems. If it bothers you so much then I won't ever do again. As I'm trying little by little,; the stuff that you don't appreciate; maybe you'd better off not seeing. Right now I have nothing to say and I don't know what to do since I'm not used to us not talking. But maybe I shouldn't say anything 'til I'm done with what I should do.

In the end, I am alone.

And maybe I've forgot but I remember it again now;

I shouldn't let my happiness rely upon other people.

At times when words fail, can I get a hug instead?

Photo from here

Wanted : CDs

2009-11-18T06:00:00.016+07:00

Taking a break from the make-up stuff craziness (tbh I was gonna write a post about that, but this one wins instead haha), these days I really want to buy some CDs. In Indonesia (or any other place in the world) it's very easy to download free copies but for these three, I really want to buy original ones. Let me tell you about them one by one.

First,

Michael Bublé - Crazy Love

1. Cry Me A River

2. All Of Me

3. Georgia On My Mind

4. Crazy Love

5. Haven't Met You Yet

6. All I Do Is Dream Of You

7. Hold On

8. Heartache Tonight

9. You're Nobody Till Somebody Loves You

10. Baby (You've Got What It Takes)

11. At This Moment

12. Stardust

13. Whatever It Takes (bonus track)

You might have heard his first single from this album, Haven't Met You Yet

Well, generally, Bublé's music is easy to enjoy. And tho it may seems easy for him to pick any songs :P I always love his album. Tbh I've listened to the tracks in my iTunes, but I need an original for my car, or simply anywhere. I love the album.

Second,

Carrie Underwood - Play On

1. Cowboy Casanova

2. Quitter

3. Mama's Song

4. Change

5. Undo It

6. Someday When I Stop Loving You

7. Songs Like This

8. Temporary Home

9. This Time

10. Look At Me

11. Unapologize

12. What Can I Say (Featuring Sons Of Sylvia)

13. Play On

Oh yes, Carrie Underwood and her beautiful beautiful voice. You might have listened to her single 'Cowboy Cassanova', I love that song, but the single that I recently loved was one from her previous album, Carnival Ride. I cried watching this video (in campus... woot).

This is 'Just a Dream'...

Which add another CD on the list, her previous album, Carnival Ride :)

Carrie Underwood - Carnival Ride

1. Flat On The Floor

2. All-American Girl

3. So Small

4. Just A Dream

5. Get Out Of This Town

6. Crazy Dreams

7. I Know You Won't

8. Last Name

9. You Won't Find This

10. I Told You So

11. The More Boys I Meet

12. Twisted

13. Wheel Of The World

Third,

Taylor Swift - Fearless Platinum Edition

Disc: 1

1. Jump Then Fall

2. Untouchable

3. Forever & Always (Piano Version)

4. Come In With The Rain

5. SuperStar

6. The Other Side Of The Door

7. Fearless

8. Fifteen

9. Love Story

10. Hey Stephen

11. White Horse

12. You Belong With Me

13. Breathe

14. Tell Me Why

15. You're Not Sorry

16. The Way I Loved You

17. Forever & Always

18. The Best Day

19. Change

Disc: 2

1. Change Music Video

2. The Best Day Music Video

3. Love Story Music Video

4. White Horse Music Video

5. You Belong With Me Music Video

6. Love Story On The Set Behind the Scenes

7. White Horse On The Set Behind the Scenes

8. You Belong With Me On The Set Behind the Scenes

9. Fearless Tour 2009 Photo Gallery

10. Fearless 2009 Tour Behind the Scenes at the First Show!

11. CMT Awards "Thug Story"

Ahaha it's no secret I really enjoy listening to Taylor Swift (and singin along with them, shhhh... :P) I've listened to the original Fearless copy and I can put it on repeat on and on, all the 13 tracks. For this one, she added 6 new ones (except for Forever and Always) and a video disc. I usually hate when an artist launch another album with 'platinum edition' or 're-packaged' but somehow I think this one's worth it.

Especially with the videos, I love her videos :D

tho my ever-favorite would be the one from the first album, Picture to Burn,

From this album, my favorite would be, like most people do, You Belong With Me, which is the ringtone of my blackberry hahaha

Those are my top CDs for now, I think I'll do a review after I bought any of them :)

*excited*

Joy to the Small World

2009-11-10T22:15:00.002+07:00

How I wish I'm in any Disney parks for Christmas :)

I love this commercial a lot ^___^

How can you resist???

2009-11-10T16:24:00.017+07:00

Nine West... the culprit behind my current obsession... Closing to the end of the year, everything became so irresistible... Or is it just me that's not strong enough hahaha...

Well, here's the item Nine West posted in Facebook that made me go head over heels....

Bonfire

I don't care if anyone says it's so simple. But it simply captured my attention and made me go "awh"... I know the heels are kinda high (kinda? yeah right~) but Nine West shoes are very comfortable and durable too... I only have two of them, bought on discount price, one by mom and one with my own money from internship ;) the one i bought myself was the last piece and on 70% discount, that's how I afford it.

I think the color is really nice (they have other colors too, but I love this one best), and you know, nude colors make your legs appear longer. It doesn't have too much detail but that's so me hehehehehe...

For these bonfires, they are originally USD 89, then got to USD 69, and now they're 48.99 USD. Tsk, Nine West sure knows how to play with me. Hix.

And as if these are not enough, they posted other pics earlier today about their new collection by Fred Allard in Paris.... Which ALSO caught my eye... Lookie here...

I don't know its name and can't even find it in Nine West website..! They look very nice! I've always wanted platform sandals but haven't found one for me til now... Now they have to show me this?? +____+;; Tho tbh I'm not thinking about it too much cuz I don't know the price and I prefer pretty heels than edgy platform sandals, so Bonfire wins over this one. But still, beautiesss~...

I think I have to stop talking about shoes for now, cuz there are also some things on bargain price occupying my mind :D

After confessing that I browsed Sephora.com regularly, best to just say what I've found there hehehe.... Sooo... Sephora is now holding the 'Holiday Magic' with special offers and gifts. One of the product that I think is really on bargain price right now are BeneFit Lust Dusters Trio. They're supposed to cost 18 USD each, but now they are 10 USD for THREE! That's like 44 USD off... Owh... And they look so sweettttt... I've seen the original price on other websites (such as macy's) and they do cost 18 USD each... Look, look...~

The lust duster box...

Originally they have 10 colors

From the top, Snow Bunny, Goldilocks, Cloud 9, Nugget, Jelly Roll, Big Daddy, Gogo Girl, Boom Boom, Punk Royalty and Moon Doggie

The lust dusters trio from Sephora has two sets.

One is the paler one, contains Nugget, Goldilocks and Snow Bunny

The second one contains Gogo Girl, Big Daddy and Moon Doggie

I think they look very sweet (and very cheap, for now, too)... Owh love to simply look at them (weirddddd :D) I wanna be somewhere I can online shop with free shipping hahaha...

Well I guess that's it for now... Two kinds of items I'm currently lusting over. Crossing my fingers this holiday wahahah...

xoxo! :*

Cookies

2009-11-07T20:58:00.008+07:00

I spent my Friday baking some cookies with a recipe from Kocchimuite, Miiko! 20 :)

In the book, Miiko was about to give Christmas gifts to her family and friends, so she made some cookies which can also be used as Christmas tree decoration. As for me, it's still a trial before making it for Christmas so I didn't put a hole for ribbon in the cake.

The recipe is very simple, you need;

100 gr unsalted butter

60 gr sugar

1 egg

1 tsp water

200 gr flour

decopen for decoration

some more flour to help with the kneading

First, divide the white and the yolk of the egg,

Mix the butter with sugar,

add egg white, mix

add flour, mix

Put it in the fridge for 30 to 60 mins

Knead and shape it, put the batch on the pan, then brush the top of the cookies with yolk

Bake it til it gets brown and ready to be decorated :)

So very easy! :)

And i love eating them too..!

Aside from the ingredients that I already have, I bought some cookie cutter and red cookie icing. I chose red cuz I know it will be really contrast with the cookies :)

Cookie cutting... Heheheh somehow I like this pic

Some of the cookies before decorated. I bought the teddy bear shaped same like Miiko's

Getting them lined after coolin down, ready to decorate

Decorating with such big decopen is not so easy. Sometimes the line got too big, gotta control the pressure and length...

But don't you think they look cute? :D

They taste a tad salty but sweet around the icing. Makes a perfect pair for tea or coffee time :)

I think I might make some more later just for myself hehehe

Weekend Refill :)

2009-11-07T19:58:00.009+07:00

This Saturday started as any other Saturday, the ones where I plan nothing or plan to sleep through. But concerning the damage that's been done to my hair. I think my hair is kinda sick :P and i need a treatment soon. That's why I'm entitled for a creambath at Roger's. Hohohoho....It went quite well and way better than my last creambath in Anata Riau Junction (which was a hair mask treatment, but well, quite the same). The last time my hair ended up lookin kinda hangin', which I hate. And that made me have to fix it myself afterwards.

But today was so nice... I picked the vanilla scent and tbh I can quite enjoy the massage tho I still have to bite my lips a bit when it feels so ticklin'.

Aside from the creambath, today I went out to refill some of my stuff. Like shower gel, lotion, facial cleanser and conditioner. Not only refilling, I decided to purchase Makarizo hair energy creambath cuz it was on bargain price... from 10000 idr to 6600 idr! hahaha decided to buy four of em :D Dunno when I'd try it but I hope anytime soon and hope it helps my hair too :)

Another highlight; I just knew that NYX cosmetics has opened in SOGO Paris Van Java. I went to Sogo to look for my Revlon Beyond Natural foundation, my shade number 220.

I've look for it in Riau Junction, BIP and also PVJ but they're all out of stock :( the lady in the Revlon counter keeps trying to convince me to purchase the 210 shade but I wasn't sure about it so I kept saying no.

Feelin' kinda desperate with the foundation, I bumped to the NYX counter and tried on some lip glosssss hehehehe... Not that I'm impulsive but... See, I usually wear Make Up Forever Glossy Full Couleur which originally belong to my Mom and I can't afford to re-purchase it if I ran out of it.

So I need something else in replacement. My sister has been using NYX glosses and I think it looks nice so I wanted to purchase one, keeping in mind that it's not really expensive (especially compared to the MUFE one :'( ) I wanted to buy the Mega Shine line but after some trying and chat with the NYX lady, I bought the sheer tube lipgloss instead.

Like the website said "has a soft brush applicator for perfect contouring", I found the brush applicator really convenient and I love the color too :) But I still wonder if it's okay to wear this to campus... I usually wear maybelline fruity jelly but some of them looks too glossy, like oily.

So so far I really love this NYX sheer gloss and thinking of purchasing another color! :)

Oh and I'm really glad to appear decent today (or every day) with such light make-up. I woreBody Shop Seaweed Mattifying Day Cream,

Maybelline Angel Fit two way cake in natural beige ochre,

Banana Boat Aloe Vera sunscreen lip balm

and NYX Sheer Tube Gloss in Rose.

Well, I'm not so confident to post any pics... But here's a smile for you :) natural look lips with a touch of healthy rosey shade of NYX :) looks better in person hahahaha *i wish*

Philosophy: Unconditional Love

2009-11-04T22:30:00.003+07:00

Philosophy

2009-11-04T07:10:00.011+07:00

Recently I browsed through the Sephora website quite often (Yes, that's a confession :P) and it becomes one of the 'most viewed' in my google chrome, maybe that's why I clicked randomly at it at times (ahahaha excusessss)

Closing in to the holiday season, the products that caught my eye are the ones from Philosophy. Although they also have make-up stuff but I found myself over-interested to their skin care products. Cuz they have the cutest line of them. So many different flavors! Lookie here

Vanilla Birthday Cake!

It has the scent and you can use it for shampoo, shower gel and bubble bath. I think it's really perfect for travelling needs.. :) But of course that's not my main reason... It's cuz they also have so many other flavorssss... Here here

Bubble Gum Blow Out!

Candy Cane for the Holidays

They also have some sets for special occasions...

Winter escape with peppermint hot cocoa and marshmallows

Bridal party with wedding cake, bubbly and bridal bouquet

(I think it's soooo cute!)

Classic cookbook with various flavors

The cookie set with oatmeal, lemon cookie, coconut macaroon and chocolate chip cookie

Just because set with three kinds of chocolates

These stuff sent me head over heels. I'm so curious and I've read the reviews that they smell so good but don't leave your skin smells so food-ish. So I think it's safe to give them to boys...? In replacement of giving the real food hahaha. Are boys allowed to use chocolate-scented shower gels? I guess there's no rules against that! :D

Apart from that, the name of the brand, philosophy also has some philosophy behind it which is quite a long explanation and I'm not really interested in reading last time I went to their website. But they use children pics in their ads to remind people of the simple happiness when you're a kid. How cute is that? And, maybe, just maybe, it fits me so well hahaha...

In addition to the philosophy title, each bottle, if you haven't already realized, has some writings on it. I found it special too, cuz this is what they have on their bottles...

On Vanilla creme brulee bottle, they have the recipe of the real vanilla creme brulee. You can make one if the smell is not enough for you :)That goes for every food-named products but for some of them with real philosophies, like the 'be somebody' bottles...

I found this really interesting and good for thoughts. Yes there is no such thing as being too good. Be somebody, we become greater good when we become humble in our own deeds. Sometimes we forgot about the simple things, I think having something like that written in our everyday shower gel bottles is a great idea. Like having a waterproof hallmark card! :D

I think these products are some of my favorite things in one. I love it!

Ehm, aside from the price... But it's so cute how can you resist? ^_^

Giveaway from Polka-Dotted Apple

2009-11-03T18:51:00.006+07:00

Are you a big fan of urban decay? Or interested in trying their products (which is not so easy to get in Indonesia)? If you haven't seen other blogpost regarding this, then I tell you what, Maggie from The Polka-Dotted Apple is holding a giveaway in celebration of the blog's first anniversary.

In order to participate, best to look at her blog post for information... :)

If you're lucky, you'd get some very cute stuff including Urban Decay Book of Shadows, how cool is that? :D I hope I'm luckier than you hahaha jk...

Well then, this is my post regarding the giveaway... It's fun answering these ^^

What is your most prized possession?

Hmmm in life value, must be love and family.

But in monetary value for now, I think i'm kinda (too) attached to my gadgets.

What is your definition of beauty?

something that makes you feel glowy and content

What makeup item (Brand and name of product) would you recommend to me?

I really love make up for ever glossy full couleur (mine's in peach (8)), it gives the right amount of gloss and you can apply your favorite lipstick/color after it makes your lips look moist, healthy and yummy.

What is your favorite KIND of makeup item and why?

I first fell in love with lip glosses, and they're still my favorite until now (see the recommended part :D)

A weird factoid about you. :B

in my head, every number has its own colour.

What is the fondest memory of your childhood?

Sleepover with my cousins every holiday. I live quite far from them when I was a kid so really love every chance to get with them doing all kinds of stuff.

Describe yourself honestly.

Even in this age I still somewhat believe in fairy tales. I tend to say yes to people but at some point I might snap. In little things, I sometimes forget to re-think and say things bluntly, but I'm extremely careful with words when it comes to big matters, which sometimes make people think I should be more 'to-the-point'

Tell me something I could do to improve my blog.

I think the colour palette is nice but tbh the title font is a bit too big. I love the way you take picture of the stuff and swatches, you should keep it that way :)

*fingerscrossed* ^_^

differences

2009-10-10T17:02:00.001+07:00

Today, I, mom dad and aunt went to teraskota bsd. All the way through the traffic jam,
my dad was sleepy so my mom asked him whether he wanted her to drive instead (not exactly asking, she was insisting :)) but my dad said no and eventually we arrived in Teraskota.

There, we had our lunch and even there my dad already hinted that he wanted to go to gramedia to look at some books. After the lunch, we except my dad went to square one for cup o'brownie. Once we've done there, we walked to gramedia.

While walking, my mom said "when he drives he's sleepy, now seeing a bookstore, he's suddenly so fresh and no trace of sleepiness left" haha I just laughed at that one and answered, "same thing happen everytime we're in mangga dua?" My mom agreed and she said "yup, on the contrary I feel so sleepy if I have to look at computer stuff in mangga dua. That's quite the same." :) then she concluded, "if you marry someone and forced yourself to love a person you actually don't, how would that last? " In things like these, you learn and you can cope up because you love the person. Awh :') within the littlest matter, there's love in it...

Best Days of Your Life

2009-10-04T19:21:00.002+07:00

Thoughts when you are far

2009-09-21T08:26:00.002+07:00

Well when you're far from someone they usually fills your mind even more. Because when they're around, you do things together so when they're not at your side you can think of anything else. But when someone's far, you can't easily drive your thoughts away... And that just happen without you realizing it..

Those missing you cards seem important when you are far from someone, the words can relate to the situation so easily. Usually you'd look at such cards and think of it as 'corny', but in this circumstance, somehow it means so much and you don't hesitate to spend some money buying them. See, how different, from corny to must-buy? :)

I have a card that ends with "I knew I'd miss you, I just didn't knew I'd miss you as much as I do" there's never enough words to express how much you miss someone, and even though you say it again and again, it doesn't work that way :) you keep saying it but it's not out of your mind. if i may say, when you say it then you realize saying it is not the point, then you miss that person even more :) especially when they answer 'I miss you too'... Sometimes you feel an urge to say "Then why aren't you here?" but you know that'd be selfish too hahahaa...

Well some say that the time you spend apart will make your love grow stronger. But if i may ask, the love may grow stronger, but will I be? =P I hope i will... There's no chance to be vulnerable... hmm hmm

Oh well,

in case you haven't heard enough,

I miss you :)

Birthday Wishlist (Part 1?)

2009-05-04T22:34:00.017+07:00

Hehehe biasanya gw menulis post soal birthday wishlist setiap tahun, tapi kyny taun lalu ke-skip, sampe *addictionmaniac* bertanya "lo pengen apa sih? gw cari2 wishlist nya ga ada" hahahaha

Jadi, merayakan satu bulan menuju ulang tahun (wth???) here it is, my birthday wishlist

yah I know I should mention that I write this 'in no particular order' tapi kayanya semua juga tau deh kalo apa yg ditulis duluan, ya berarti pop duluan di kepala... berarti... yah ngerti lah ya kira2...

So here they are...

The first one is a cellphone... saya ingin handphone, walaupun saya tidak layak diberi handphone (krn sudah menghilangkan handphone 2 kali... menceburkan dalam minyak 1 kali... dsb dsb)

Wonder what kind of cellphone I'd like...

Maybe...

a Blackberry?

No, I don't find the berry necessary

*walopun kalo dikasih ga nolak

an iPhone?

hmmm lucu sih, curious sama iPhone, tapi waktu liat di tokonya koq tebel gini... gw kira bneran persis iTouch... lagipula masih tidak bisa copy paste kan... ga deh, ga pengen... i'm already having a steady loving relationship with my iTouch

*walopun kalo dikasih ga nolak

akhirnya, dan memang sudah dari awal pengen... I want a NOKIA!

NOKIA 3120 to be precise... What it's like? Persis 2600 ku cuma sudah ada kamera depan dan resolusi lebih oke, serta tri-band dan 3G... hohoho that's all I need baby... and it's not so

expensive too...

Di nomor dua adalah entry yang bner2 serakahh dan mimpi...

MacBook Pro 15"

enough said, I won't explain anything :P

Dan tambahan satu lagi di bagian "elektronik" adalah...

an ice cream maker!

hihihi senangnya kalau bisa membuat es krim2 yg yummy itu... hmmm... belum browsing brapa standar harga alat ini...

Dari ice cream maker loncat ke hal-hal yg berhubungan dengan makanan...

some of you may already know... inginnya sih beli semua isi Toko Kijang Mas tapi ya mana mungkin lah hahahaha... bisa pilihin juga di situ kalo mau... loyang, cetakan, spuit, cups sprinkles yg lucu2, candy mold, cetakan cookies yg lucu2, tray untuk pudding dan kue kecil, semuanya... apapun itu yg ada di sana deh... menerima sumbangan untuk future baking experiences...

buku resep, apapun itu... mau mau mau.... bukunya mas Jamie apa lagi... boleh boleh sangat diterima lohh :))

Next, ada one particular scarf from GAP yg ku suka...

tapi ga ada gambarnya bo... di websitenya ga ada, kyny udah last season tapi tetep aja ga di diskon juga di GAP sini hufffff... jadi kira2 seperti ini lah ya... sbnernya yg dipengenin itu warna peach dan ada polka dots nya, tapi ada gradasi juga ky yg ini... boleh lah ini representing that scarf ;)

and I also love shoes from nine west especially platform peep toes... uhu pengennya... ya namanya juga WISHlist... ya wish2 aja lah ya....

sebenernya pengen sepatu hitam... tapi untuk model yg ini kalo warnanya item, heels nya tetep warna krem gitu jadi kurang oke... warna taupe gini jug manis loh... ada sepatu warna grey di pull&bear yg juga mendapatkan lirikan penuh arti... tapi waktu dilihat lagi kmaren rasanya ga seoke pertama lihat (thank you, Retno... for your advice hehehehhe jadi ga kalap :D)

and to go with it...

a cute skirt from topshop... Topshop has very cute mini skirt collection (with not so cute prices, if i may add) tapi yah... manis2 sih... coba lihat di sini

also cute dresses...

forever 21, i guess? Loves Topshop's Color Block dress and also Poplin dress...But apparently anywhere you can find cute dresses (such as Melawai?) especially with lovely price and elastic waistband so you can be sure it will fit me hehehehe...

Juicy Couture Socialite watch... huhu luv it... pink resin bangle... huhuhuhu manisnya....

Harusnya masih banyak yg pengen di add di list ini... tapi mata sudah kurang kooperatif... ngantuk... tapi sblom diakhiri bagian 1 ini... yg saya butuhkan adalah...

Dompet... saya ingin sekali dompet baru... pink.. (yg sekarang warnanya turqoise, kurang matching sama 'perangkat' lain :)) kalau saja coach tiba-tiba diskon 90% baru saya bisa beli dompet ini.. huhu...

That's it for now... Still one month to go, still have time to add things to the list hehehehe

Good night, Bandung... ciao!

About Y-O-U, you you :)

2009-04-08T07:33:00.000+07:00

1. Pilih salah satu diantara Orang yg ada di otak loe...

the always-in-my-mind-Mr-Beaver

2. Rambutnya ?

mulai panjang di poni.... needs a touch up

3. badannya??

woooo... sexy with extra fat in some corners ;)

4. Suaranya ?

deep, he loves to sing, i love to listen to him say anything

5. Hobinya ?

his chemical engineering interest, reading tons of stuff (so various~), badminton, meaningless singing, making fun of me, walking back and forth in my mind. <3

6. Minuman kesukaan dia?

doesn't have a thing for coffee... he loves amaretto

7. Tempat dia sekolah/bekerja?

GustoMSC... Rotterdam (huks... so far away)

- FIRST -

8. kapan pertama kali kenalan sm dia ?

wess... uhm when I was in 6th grade I guess... somewhere around my elementary school year

9. Apa perasaan lu waktu pertama kenalan sm dia ?

he... yah boleh lah... ganteng deh... (pikiran anak kelas 6 sd?? :P)

10. Apa yang pertama kali bikin lu tertarik pada dia

he said his favorite movie is Life is Beautiful (La Vita e Bella), which made him teary, and one of his favorite movie soundtrack album is A Walk to Remember (Yea, he tricked me into this hahahaha... just kidding, baby~)

11. Sikap dia pada lu saat pertama kenal

Waktu gw sd itu?? biasa banget... lumayan lah ramah2 dikit...

12. Kenangan paling menyenangkan dengan dia ?

Paling?? Uhm... Our first anniversary.. (didn't get to be with him on the second and the third :'()

- CURRENTLY -

13. Status dia skarang, siapanya lu ?

my long distance pet hahahah kidding... my boyfriend, my future Mr, I hope :P

14. Bagaimana perasaan lu pada dia sekarang ?

love him so. miss him so.

15. Menurut lu, bagaimana perasaan dia pada lu sekarang ?

sometimes i feel like his life will go on without me. But then he changed my mind.

16. Sudah berapa lama sejak pertama kali lu kenal dia ?

almost 10 years?

17. Dia yang dulu, dengan dia yang sekarang, ada perubahan ga ? apa ?

he's even more mature. he knew better of things. he achieved lots of things. he has more friends. he loves to travel. he has more faith about his future. he loves me even more (i guess :P). he looks even better.

18. Apa yang membuat lu nggak puas dengan dia sekarang ?

sometimes he's so absorbed in what he's doing... I can't see him all the time so I don't have any idea. That makes me worried and I don't enjoy it.

19. Lu senang nggak dengan keadaan kalian saat ini ?

Yup! Would be even happier if we're close in distance, but I know this happens for a reason.

- MOST -

20. Hal termanis yang pernah lu lakuin buat dia?

ah... that's up for him to decide.

21. Hal termanis yang pernah dia lakukan buat lu ?

Still thinking of me even though we're far away. He's not the kind of person who usually let his feelings out, so whenever he shows me how much he care, I think it's very sweet.

22. Hal yang paling lu benci dari dia ?

kalo lagi galak. BARK!

23. Hal paling lo sukai dr dia?

He's trustworthy, sweet, he always do his best, and he keeps his promises.

24. dia tinggal dimana?

Rotterdam... >_<;

25. trakhir kontek ma dia?

early in the morning, via sms

26. ngom nya aku kamu atau gue elo?

ayang-aku. aku-kamu... hahh dari blom jadian juga

27. pernah kasi bunga ga dia?

pernahhh... the first time ever was on our first valentine's day and he proudly said to me "I got this for only IDR 3000!" *_*

28. muka dia klo lg tidur?

sama kaya bantalnya :D

29. pernah ngigo ga dia?

uhm belum pernah denger

30. yang buat km kangen dr dia?

banyak... every little thing

31. sapa yg lebih jaim?

mungkin saya...?

32. dia pernah manja ga sama kamu,gimana?

hehehe

33. kamu pernah manja sm dia, gmn?

the answer is soooo obvious :P

34. gaya klo lagi marahan?

gitulah... kadang ngambekan... tapi diusahakan ga disimpen2...

we easily forgive koq... luv u ndut.

Kenapa?

2009-04-01T22:20:00.000+07:00

Kenapa yah...

akhir-akhir ini saya merasa agak jauh dengan pacar. Yah secara jarak sih semua orang juga tau kami dipisahkan 11479.6 kilometer jauhnya...

tapi selama ini tidak menjadi masalah.

Maksud saya dengan merasa agak jauh adalah menurunnya waktu mengobrol. Sms masih, kadang-kadang... walaupun harus dimaklumi lah dengan sibuknya kegiatan masing-masing, kadang balasan tidak langsung datang. Saya sudah belajar menghadapi hal-hal ini selama satu setengah tahun lebih dan belajar terbiasa.

Sayang, kadang tetap ada saat-saat seperti ini, merasa agak jauh. Saat ingin mendengar suara tapi koneksi telepon atau voip tidak mendukung (argh! #@%$%$^@!)... Juga saat (AKHIRNYA!) bisa bertemu dia di messenger, tetapi dia atau saya tidak bisa berlama-lama mengobrol... Atau saat saya mengirim email tidak penting (namun penuh harap) yang dibalas dengan singkat saat chat atau smsan...

Mungkin karena saat-saat seperti inilah, saya menjawab dengan sangat gembira saat koneksi telepon atau voip berjalan dengan baik.

Karena saat-saat seperti ini, saya akan mengetik kata "AYANG" dalam huruf-huruf kapital saat bertemu dia di messenger.

Karena saat-saat seperti ini, menulis kata "kangen" menjadi hal yang tidak bosan-bosannya saya lakukan baik dalam sms ataupun email atau apapun.

Saat-saat saya dan ia tidak bisa bersama, saat-saat yang membuat saya makin bersyukur saat ada waktu untuk kami berdua.

Wajar ada saat-saat ia terasa lebih jauh...

namun saya percaya akan kembali saat-saat kami terasa makin dekat.

Terima kasih Tuhan, untuk kesempatan sekecil apapun,

karena dengan itu saya sudah menemukan jawaban "kenapa?" ini. :)

Huks.

2009-03-17T00:25:00.000+07:00

http://prinmania.multiply.com/journal/item/12/ASI_Terakhir_untuk_Baby_Nastra

Dan sayapun menitikkan air mata

ChocoChip Cookies

2009-03-15T11:15:00.000+07:00

Finally having an oven has caused a baking euphoria.

Yes, I have longed for an oven in my apartment for some time.

Yesterday I finally bought one. Yay!

The first thing I made with the oven was the classic chocolate chip cookies

I used a very simple recipe found on the internet (thank you mbah Google)

which goes like this

Bahan:

160 g mentega tawar

80 g gula bubuk

75 g kacang mete panggang, cincang

75 g chocolate chip

1/2 sdt pasta cokelat Black Forest, jika suka

Ayak jadi satu:

210 g tepung terigu protein rendah

10 g cokelat bubuk

Cara membuat:

Biarkan mentega dalam suhu ruangan hingga agak lembek.

Tambahkan gula bubuk, aduk dengan sendok kayu hingga tercampur rata.

Tambahkan tepung terigu, dan pasta cokelat (jika suka) aduk hingga rata.

Masukkan chocolate chip dan kacang mete, aduk rata dengan tangan.

Bentuk adonan menjadi bola-bola kecil, taruh di loyang datar. Tekan sedikit hingga agak pipih.

Panggang dalam oven panas bersuhu 180 C selama 20 menit.

Angkat dan dinginkan. Simpan dalam wadah bertutup rapat.

Blame my laziness, I'd rather write some more than translating it hahaha.

Here's the source

Turns out the cookies taste nice, crunchy and sweet.

I didn't add nuts cuz I don't really enjoy them.

These cookies are very easy to make because actually you won't need a mixer, you can just twist them around with a wooden spoon, but in my case I used a mixer. And you can just shape it on your own, just make a ball then push it to make it thinner.

The first 8 pieces of the first batch went burnt (somehow I already expected that), but the rest turns well. Althought when my mom tasted them, she said she prefer the ones I refer as 'burnt'... She even brought it home with her to Jakarta.

Unfortunately, after making these cookies, later at night I got myself a gift of herpes zoster. hix. But it's not that big of a deal. Looking at the bright side, I now have something to nibble while laying on my bed. I'm proud of these cookies! Yum

PS: I wish you could taste them, Beaver ^^

Post-Assignment Treat

2009-02-19T21:40:00.000+07:00

After the first assignment, I decided to take quality time by myself.

I went to Paris van Java, then bought myself two books,

adding up to the one I'm still finishing...

From top to bottom:

1. Winning a Scholarship by Erny Murniasih

I don't usually buy books like this, but I think GagasMedia published great books bout this matter. I once read Study Abroad, also published by GagasMedia, and love how they put important matters into a fun package. I hope this one will entertain me also.

Oh and they also included a cd that contains a file of scholarship application form, just for practice, and an example of statement of purpose. *curious*

I feel so novice in these matters... hmm...

2. The Wedding Officer by Anthony Capella

I think I wrote about this writer earlier, about his book titled Food of Love. This one is also set in Italy with culinary background. I love it! Uhm I also would like to try the English version if only it's not so very expensive...~

3. Petunjuk Hidup Tentram dan Bahagia (Guide to Stop Worrying and Start Living)

by Dale Carnegie

This one's a self-help classic. I don't usually buy self-help books, but this one's recommended by my boyfriend. Thinking it would help my worrying habbit. We'll see... *wink*

Then, as you see... A butter croissant and tall single blended caramel java chip fraps.

Which were surprisingly disappointing.

The croissant, too crispy and bittery.

The frap... not fun being drank alone with no one to chat with...

Ah well at least I got great books :)

Happy weekend, everyone, may I say that already?

Somebody buy me this...~

2009-02-18T05:54:00.000+07:00

Pastry Shoes!

Or this one!

Or this cute watch from Betsey Johnson...

Breakfast!

2009-02-18T05:02:00.000+07:00

Today I'm having this Cimory's strawberry yogurt milk with nata de coco.

This is an attempt to cure my lovesick acute missing syndrome for my Beaver *yea exaggerating*

The last time we were in Sour Sally we had plain yogurt with nata de coco and longans.

Although he always said that I can pick whichever topping cuz it's me who want it,

I always ask him whether he'd like this one or that one. But i think for me that nata de coco is a must *blaming Nadia*

The cutest thing is though he always said that he can't really enjoy the yogurt, he always let me give him some. Not just one spoonful, but one more and another and another. Even when I feel full and can't finish it, I'd just keep giving it to him and before he noticed, it's finished!

It may sound small and all, just sitting there having silly yogurt or ayam goreng or anything else. But the thing is, I miss him so. I miss our little lunch break. Me from my studio, him from driving around or playing playstation. And the simple texts "Are you done? Should I pick you up now?" or "The class just ended, Where r u?" are the ones I miss sending. Which usually followed by "Where do u want to eat?"

I guess before he came home for holiday, I was starting to settle with the situation. After that bloodly long one and half year. But after he took off again, I'm like starting from scratch again, pushing the timer back to zero. And I'm not used to it. Again.

Argh. Summer holiday. Please come soon.

And let me fly *_*

PS: I love you, luv

Am I Worthy?

2009-02-15T16:20:00.000+07:00

This semester started with a clean slate after the two failed studios.

I have to repeat the mighty 3200, finding it not as mighty as I thought...

With slightly upgraded confidence after (failed) 4000,

I stepped into 3200 with determination to arrive at the finish line with satisfaction.

Meanwhile, there are other things that also need attention...

Studying architecture may revolves around studio, but that's not the end of it.

I also have some other subjects to think about.

This time it's Persiapan Tugas Akhir or Final Project Preparation (free translation by me)

and Kerja Praktek or Internship, which is still quite confusing

and also a slot for my own choice of subject.

I put Introduction to Landscape in it, but I still have a chance to change it.

After two weeks of this new semester, I decided to re-think...

Because of one more semester bonus from the failure of 4000,

I actually can place the additional credit subject anywhere within these three semester I have ahead of me. That should leave things easier, but apparently not.

You see, once you've failed something so big, it affected you in ways.

As for me, I became hesitant to repeat old design decision,

because I often came to the same thought,

"That decision failed me... Will it fail me again this time?"

Not only design decisions, it also affect my social life...

Before I failed 4000 I thought I would use this semester to intern at Jepret IMA-G,

thinking I would be worthy of such extracurricular activity...

But after that 4000 incident, I thought, I can't afford it.

Any lessons, any courses, any hobbies...

Remembering back then I couldn't even manage to do what I have to do...

Therefore I couldn't help wondering,

Am I worthy... to have fun in other things, to put my time to other interests?

I guess for now, my heart just says no.

*waving at Jepret and sobs*

Daughter VS Son

2009-02-15T13:25:00.000+07:00

Halo semuanya sudah lama sekali saya tidak update blog. Rindukah pembaca pada saya? Tentu tidak! (combantrin kali...)

Hah. Garing.

Well alasan knp saya tidak update2 blog krn saya sibuk hohoho dengan berbagai hal lah ya. banyak lah macem2. Dan selama saya sibuk dgn macem2 itu saya tetep sempet menuliskan hal2 yang kira2 ingin saya masukkan blog kalau sudah ada waktu. Salah satu topik yang ingin saya tulis adalah soal Daughter vs Son.

Jadi waktu liburan kmaren saya diajak pacar mengunjungi rumahnya di Sragen, Jawa Tengah. Perjalanan ke sana ditempuh dengan kereta Lodaya menuju stasiun Solo Balapan, dilanjutkan dengan naik taksi selama kurang lebih satu jam menuju Sragen. Topik daughter vs son muncul di tengah perjalanan taksi menuju ke Sragen yang diiringi dengan campur sari, tidak hanya audio tapi juga visual (Wonosobo... Wonosobo... Keseniannyaa... Ya campur sari... tengterengteng~)

Dalam perjalanan taksi yang sebenarnya sebentar itu, pacar saya dengan fasih membangun percakapan dengan sang supir. Dengan boso jowo yang kadang saya bisa ngerti dari satu kata (sisa kalimatnya saya karang dari satu kata itu) ato kadang saya ga ngerti sama sekali. salah satu yang saya tangkap dari pembicaraan itu adalah pertanyaan pacar mengenai anak si bapak supir. Bapak supir bercerita bahwa dia punya anak dua, dengan pekerjaan menjadi supir taksi dia menanggung dua anak dan satu istri (asumsi saya, ga tau deh kalo punya lagi...). Dengan nada bercanda, pacar saya bertanya, "Ada rencana tambah lagi pak?" ternyata dia menjawab "Ada lah, soalnya 2 anak saya perempuan!" (dengan bahasa jawa, ini terjemahan sangat bebas yak...)

Singkat memang pembicaraan soal anak ini, di tengah segala topik lain, tapi topik ini bner2 teringat dan saya tulis di notes untuk ditulis di blog.

Kenapa sih?

Emang kalo anak 2 cw kenapa?? Belum lagi pas udah turun, diceritakan dengan lengkap oleh pacar, bahwa untuk sehari hidup butuh 150 ribu rupiah, dan blm tentu selalu dpt dengan taksi yang bensinnya tidak ditanggung oleh perusahaan... Jadi untuk ngehidupin keluarga yang anaknya 2 perempuan itu... belum tentu penghasilannya konstan toh? Kenapa harus dipaksa nambah karena keinginan punya anak laki-laki ya?

For you guys out there, no hard feelings loh, saya bukannya mau nulis soal perempuan itu bisa ini itu. Tapi cuma miris aja, knapa sih orang suka kurang bersyukur dengan punya anak perempuan? Bahkan di etnis tertentu, udah punya anak 5 perempuan tetep mau punya anak lagi biar punya anak cowo, ntar kalo udah punya, anak cowo ini yang jadi ter ter ter TERRR paling paling PALING segalanya walopun dia bungsu kek tengah kek apa kek. Mungkin ada kebanggan tertentu punya penerus nama keluarga, tapi rasanya hal-hal ky gini yang membuat orang jadi hilang fokus tujuan mempunyai anak.

Yah saya juga blm punya anak sih, nikah aja blm... dan pengen lah ntar mungkin punya anak cowo ato cw. Mungkin juga ada harapan spt "duh anak pertama gw cowo dong" ato "ntar anak kedua ama anak pertama beda x tahun dong". Wajar lah jadi orang tua punya harapan-harapan untuk anaknya. Tapi rasanya kalo mengharapkan dan tidak dapat lalu sampe frustasi dan merasa HARUSSSSS, apalagi dengan keadaan lo yg mgkn blm mengijinkan, saya rasa berlebihan...

Dulu waktu pergi ke Science Centre di Singapore, sempet liat section soal rekayasa genetik. dan ada tulisan-tulisan di dinding dan survey salah satunya pertanyaan, "kalo dengan rekayasa genetik kamu bisa milih gender anak kamu, apa kamu akan melakukannya?"... kira-kira gmana?

Koq saya masih mikir jawaban yang tepat adalah tidak ya...

Mungkin usaha-usaha yang masih dalam batas wajar...(misalnya seperti tips2 yang pernah ditulis kk saya dalam blog nya xP) masih bisa ditolerir lah... tapi kalopun ga berhasil juga ya it's okay...

Call me old fashioned but... teknologi segemana juga... masih ada rahasia yang sangat besar dan segala surprise yang Tuhan mo bikin di hidup kita. Kalo kita mo ngatur2 sendiri, buat apa lagi? Justru saat kamu lepas tangan, Tuhan lagi mengerjakan keajaiban itu untuk kamu. Jadi buat kamu-kamu calon orang tua... ga usah stres mikir harus anak cw ato cowo apalagi frustasi pas ga sesuai dengan harapan, klisenya, anak adalah berkat. (Gw bukan aktivis KB... tapi ini bukan berarti nyuruh punya anak banyak juga lohhhh xP)

Mo cw mo cowo, syukuri, cintai, ajari...

Daughter VS Son

2009-02-15T13:22:00.000+07:00

Halo semuanya sudah lama sekali saya tidak update blog. Rindukah pembaca pada saya? Tentu tidak! (combantrin kali...)

Hah. Garing.

Singkat memang pembicaraan soal anak ini, di tengah segala topik lain, tapi topik ini bner2 teringat dan saya tulis di notes untuk ditulis di blog.

Kenapa sih?

Koq saya masih mikir jawaban yang tepat adalah tidak ya...

Mo cw mo cowo, syukuri, cintai, ajari...

In Love With: Nadia Ikayanti's (yes, that's ur name, dear) Compulsive Salad

2009-01-12T05:33:00.000+07:00

Yesterday I came to this so-called reunion of my grade 12 class, Kelapa Muda.

I brought with me chocolate pudding as my share of the potluck.

Then, after hours of waiting for the others to come, in the end there was only me, Tya, Chichi and the host, Nadia.

She said that we're going to make something together, and -tada- that something turned out to be a fruit salad.

To tell you the truth, I'm never a big fan of saladS... The only salad I ever liked was my Aunt's Kartofel Salad back in Deutschland, paired with grilled steak *yum*

And another confession, I'm not a fan of yoghurt and nata de coco either and rarely agree to eat them even paired with anything.

That's why it came to my surprise to find myself in love with this fruit salad.

It consists some fuji apples, strawberries, jelly, nata de coco (without its water) with two servings of Strawberry Yoghurt (I did some 'suit' with Tya to choose between plain and strawberry yoghurt, and I won!)

Tell you why I love it... Because at first you can find the excitement when your stomach squirmes a little because of the yoghurt and strawberries (for the sourness), and then you feel something crispy (the fuji apples) and fluffy (the jelly), topped with the sweetness of the nata de coco. Ooohhh yummy!

Oh I wanna have it again!

PS: Great to eat for breakfast, get you straight to your "morning business", if you know what i mean... ^^

"SECRETS"

2009-01-10T04:50:00.000+07:00

Di tag Shasa dari tanggal 19 Sept 2008

(check it out here)

Jadi saya harus menulis ceritanya...

tentang 11 hal yang sbnernya sih ga rahasia juga... apa fun facts begitu kali ya

sementara menunggu waktu untuk menulis (jadi arsitek punya banyak alasan untuk menunda banyak hal loh... *sedih*)

udah kepikir mo nulis beberapa hal...

1. Mungkin banyak jg yg udah tau, I'm quite a number freak... suka bgt ngitung2 apalagi perkalian dan perpangkatan... untuk hal2 ini I don't mind using my memory hehehe... Seneng juga kalo nemuin angka2 yang besar tapi ternyata bilangan prima... rasanya ada kebanggan tersendiri... termasuk kalo nemuin angka yang keliatannya prima taunya bukan, terus nyari apa aja angka yang bisa membuat angka itu... misalnya 3149... i love that number!!! keliatan bilangan prima padahal itu 47 x 67... whew... took my breath away *lebay*

dan dalam pikiran gw... setiap angka ada warnanya... 4 tu biasanya ijo, 2 tu orange... duh freak abis ya...

2. Udah pindah blog ke mana-mana... ga jelas deh ampe buat bikin account overmellow, gw harus cari username ato ngupdate lagi krn ternyata dulu pernah bikin blog di situ... Keliatan deh kalo dulu fase 'pencarian jati diri' jadi ga bisa stay di satu blog hahahaha apa seh...

3. Waktu kecil ngefans banget sama Aaron Carter *what the...?* punya posternya di kamar.. banyak, ngumpulin, semangat abis deh!! terus suka mikir gmana kalo ktemu bneran hahahaha najongssss... kalo skrg dipikir lagi koq ga banget ya..

4. Sebenernya nama gw Melinda Caroline Lewerissa, tapi krn kesalahan nulis akte waktu gw masih bayi (yg notabene gw ga bisa protes2 krn masih cuma bisa nangis doang), jadi Lewerissa Melinda Caroline.. Agak aneh kalo nulis something yg international krn gw pengen bilang surname Lewerissa, tapi in order to make sure my name got written right... gw harus nulis last name Caroline... hohhhh.. blm lagi menghadapi berbagai guru/dosen yang salah manggil... susah menulis nama gw... pernah waktu sma ada guru yang bilang "saya bakal inget terus nama kamu krn blm pernah ktemu orang lain yg namanya begini"

hehhhh... segitunya...

5. Kalo suka sama orang, gw otomatis mengadopsi selera musik orang yang bersangkutan, suka di sini dalam artian deket ajah, mo itu temen, pacar, sodara... mau ga mau gw jadi mau mencoba denger selera musik tu orang... terus biasanya suka juga... ga tau knapa... mgkn hubungan batin hahahaha

6. Seneng naek mobil orang laen buat tau selera musiknya... Ini paling kerasa waktu udah kuliah kyny, kdg naek mobil sapaa gitu terus surprised dan mikir "ternyata sangar2 dengerinnya lagu begini" atoo "ternyata si ini suka HSM juga" something like that...

7. Seperti kata retno, I'm a true disney channel kid... Kalo lagi ga ada kerjaan dan ada di depan tv, yg gw pencet pasti Disney Channel... kalo ternyata lg yg gw ga suka, baru pergi ke channel laen... pernah dulu mikir untuk drop kuliah krn mengganggu jadwal ntn Suite Life of Zac & Cody, untung ga jadi... dan tu kuliah *syukurnya* dpt A hahahahah (hayo tebak kuliah apa...)... mungkin ini juga yg membuat gw pengen honeymoon park-hopping Disneyland di seluruh duniaaa!!!

8. Suka hal-hal berbau klasik seperti ball (dlm artian dance ya, bukan bola yg nggelinding), musical, ballet, walopun ga bisa melakukan hal-hal itu... ntah knapa pengen bgt punya pengalaman dgn hal-hal itu...makanya kecewa sama prom aneh jaman sma ituuuu...

kalo ada yg tau dmana yg ada acara dance gitu (ky di Enchanted gitu...) kasi tau gw yaaaa

9. Agak terobsesi dengan tanggal 10.10.10... xP

10. sepertinya sulit belong to any clique...maxudnya gw sulit mengasosiasikan diri dengan kelompok2... temen gw bisa 1 dari sini, 1 dari situ, 1 dari sonooo... wkt smp hal ini bikin gw sempet dibilang ga setia kawan *hix* pdhl yaaa emang begini... bahkan waktu "wisuda" smp, bokap gw ngeliat gw 'mingling' dan sampe rumah bilang "kamu ky papi ya gaya temenannya" hahahaa bnarkah...

11. Terakhir nih, apa ya... I love sweet things! Suka makanan manis, aroma yang manis,kopi yang manis... semua yang manis-manis... kmrn ini gw liat artikel di Cosmopolitan, di sisipan bonusnya, ada petunjuk memilih 'your scent' terus katanya gw termasuk orang yang mengutamakan taste... maksudnya kecapan gitu... tandanya suka scent vanilla ato chocolate hahahaha... huhuhu... (anyone knows the smell of Vera Wang's Princess??)... Oya... gw juga suka jadi inget sama sesuatu lebih krn scent nya...

Walah kyny malah jadi terlalu bersemangat nih...

sekarang harus nge-tag 6 orang yaaaa... hmmm

1. K' Marcelle

2. Heri

3. Retno

4. TM

5. Cito

yah udah ga tau lagi...

ayo ditulis yaaa :))

Wish List

2009-01-05T18:23:00.000+07:00

Just a random list of things I want:

1. iPod

actually any kind is enough, I need an mp3 player... especially when the one which's playing in the studio doesn't match my taste

2. 3g mobile phone

I've been saving my money for this... Hopefully I can buy one soon

3. Magnifique by Lancome

Dunno why (maybe Pupe) I wanted this perfume... Maybe the ad just got to me right

4. One Piece Bundle 1-20

I've bought every book but some got lost due to careless borrower...

5. A full collection of TINTIN from INDIRA (the old Indonesian copy)

Funner to read than the new ones...

6. Tales of Beedle the Bard, US Edition

I've seen a copy of this book in Singapore's BORDERS... should've bought them...

7. SHOW ME HOW

this is a book that contains 500 things that you need to know in pictures and easy words. It even contains how to waltz!

8. Baby Pink Sweatshirt

I've told some of my friends who asked me what did I want, that I wanted a pink sweatshirt...

But I guess it's not that easy to find, esp when it's not u who's searching...

9. La Senza's innerwear

out of several curiosities

10. SKIP BO playcards

Played them long ago with my cousins, now I'm curious on how to play again... cuz I already forgot...

11. Simple shawl

You know the kind of shawl that's not to thick, so if u wear them you won't look like ur having a cold?

12. GAP things

this one's also out of several curiosities *glowering at the price tag*

13. A great big jazz band recording

to listen to in the car. This one's bcuz I watched Swing Girls

14. A very nice pair of closed-toe black high heels, preferably ones that shine

Haven't found the one I can buy...

15. University Shirt

Kinda nice collecting them, sweatshirts are better tho

ah... more to come later sometimes, i guess

In Love With: Coffee Flavored Cimory

2009-01-01T12:26:00.000+07:00

Hohoho from now on I'm gonna have this special section called In Love With

It's about things I recently discover and love!

First one

Coffee Flavored Cimory

For those of you who haven't got to taste Cimory, just go to Carrefour or FoodHall and find a bottle of milk titled Cimory. My favorite is the coffee flavored one.

I first tasted it in their booth at the Disney!Live event. It was chocolate flavored that time and it's nice. Then I found the coffee flavored one in FoodHall, bought it afterwards. It tasted very very nice! I gave a sip to my friend who loves coffee, and he said it tastes nice, too. For me it tastes like Baskin Robbin's Jamoca Almond Fudge.

I do like coffee but I love them sweet with lots of milk in it. Usually I put so many cream in my coffee, some people said I drink Coffee Milk, not Milky Coffee. (Yes yes, susu kopi, instead of kopi susu...). Maybe that's the reason I love coffee flavored Cimory.

During the Christmas season, I came home to Jakarta and got a chance to buy it again (very cheap only 16000 IDR, cmiiw), this time I bought two. The night I bought them, I was going to have a Secret Santa event in my house, so my sister bought some ice cream and I bought whipped cream and chocolate sauce to make some kinda sundae-like scoops. The next day I poured my Cimory coffee and put some whipped cream on top, then added some chocolate sauce. I scooped the whip cream (covered in milk and sauce) and it tasted like heaven! Haha I'm exaggerating but it tasted so good, you've gotta try it!

I wrote this the first one at my In Love With because recently I sometimes said "Ah.. Cimory.." out of nowhere. My sister said it's like I have a crush on someone... And I said "it just tasted so good!" then she waved like she heard enough of it hahaha

Review: Twilight

2008-11-13T07:41:00.002+07:00

Of course most of you have already knew what Twilight is about...

It's about a girl who fell in love with a man who turned out to be a vampire.
What's so different about this book that so many people read it?
I think, yes, as predicted, it blends romance and mystery nicely...
Something I would enjoy as much as I enjoy Pirates of Caribbean, but POC has something more because it's also very funny... (I mean the first one)

Why am I comparing this book to a movie? Cuz reading it felt like watching a movie... You can easily picture the setting, the characters, and you want to be involved in it because it's an interesting adventure.

One thing that made me giving it 4 instead of 5 stars is the character of Bella Swan... I think the book clearly stated why Edward is in love with her so much, and I can understand that... But this Bella is only like seventeen, cmiiw, and she's willing to give everything for this guy... yes, this vampire guy. I don't know if puberty works that well around vampires? :)

Well despite that, it's a very good book and I want to buy the next in the saga, New Moon. Anyone interested in buying it for me?

PS:
I'm afraid of watching the movie... No, not that I'm scared of anything.
But based on my research through the websites... I'm not really satisfied on who played the characters. I don't know if it will be different when they start moving around (in the movie). Besides, I'm kinda afraid that these characters will ruin my imagination (like you can't help picturing Harry Potter as Daniel Radcliffe after you watch the movie...?)
Still can't decide but can't help being curious as well... :)

earplug

2008-10-22T18:54:00.001+07:00

I plug the earphones to its place,

then do the same to my ears.

I shut my hearing machine

and put my sight on stand by

Only by a touch that matters,

my mind will work again.

But for now,I can't see nor hear anything

For I've stopped caring

With a small device and these earphones,

i have my own world

where no one, yes you're included,

will exist without my permission

Oh yes it does music and all

But aren't those things just an earplug with so-called-modern touch?

And, no, I don't think you should plug it in while I'm talking to you

Of course

malati vecchia signora

2008-10-01T17:25:00.000+07:00

Spending the day like a sick old lady

Yes that's what I did today

Can't have another way to describe it

First, being waken up by someone else who needed keys

Then watching tv series like it's something important

Then chatting with someone online feels like fussing your neighbor

and then I get to sleep again

long and nice sleep like it was night already

And the cherry on top, waking up after a lightning

Then I asked for something to eat

0500 pm

Argh

Twilight

2008-10-01T00:50:00.000+07:00

She walked that night through the bustling city crowd

The weather was fine the moonlight had to admit losing to the city's bright light

What a night, she thought

Everyone did come to that silly little gathering

All of her friends and relatives

Together just to share some laughs

It's not even their occasion, but yet they enjoyed 'celebrating' it

And now here she was

making her way home, tapping her cute peach flats upon the pavement

Looking very nice, but somehow she couldn't help thinking,

why do I have to dress up without him around..

Oh, these flats made her remember...

There was one time he told her that he'd love seeing her dressed in peach

But he didn't get to see it before he left

And since then she's a bit obsessed with peach things

Still, she hadn't found a peach dress nice enough to show him

Ah, what am I thinking, she thought

She skipped the peach thought and continued her way along the street

Oh, twilights, always have their way to make her reminisce

So she stopped

Turning around a bit to a coffee shop, and order her favorite caramel beverage, almost adding a cup of vanilla he usually orders when they used to came together

Thinking she needed the time to be lost in thoughts

Sipping the sweetness, she couldn’t help watching the couple across her table

They laughed and enjoyed their coffee

But she thought, they wouldn’t need the coffee, it’d be enough because they really enjoyed each other presence

And she couldn’t help her eyes from being teary

Oh, not again, she thought

After the coffee and some more walks

She found herself in her room

She didn’t turn the lights on

Only the glow from the streets outside entered the room

She wouldn’t need it anyway

She just sat on her bed

Starring to the darkness

And can’t help realizing, once again

How much she misses him

And how sometimes it’s just unbearable

Looking outside she saw the stars, and one the brightest of them all

In her heart she said, if you’re one of the wishing star,

Please let me be with him, not by voices, not by pictures, not by words,

But truly beside him, even for just a minute tonight

Then she let it happen

she cried herself to sleep

02.09.08

2008-09-05T22:50:00.000+07:00

This post was originally written at the date of the title, but I haven't been able to post it until now

02.09.08
It's been
365 days
52 weeks
1 year
since that day

There was a wedding the night before
And that night she held him and said nothing
That day they had the trip through the new highway
That day she put that little gift in his backpack while saying
'open this once you're in the plane, okay?'
That day he held her one last time before going through that door
That day she watched him until the very last sight
While trying her best to hold her tears

That day was this day one year ago

He is still away
And she is still waiting
For him to come back through that door
For her to finally able to let her tears fall
Tears of bliss
For having him back again

Nel Bisogno

2008-08-25T00:09:00.000+07:00

Sometimes people trapped themselves in things
Whether it's work, study, business or even just their own thoughts
With the world today sometimes I think it won't be a big problem for somebody to live literally alone, at least not as hard as in the past.

Between the circles that go around the world,
It is a great blessing to find somebody who really needs you
Of all the work, study, business, thoughts and people around the world, this one single person truly needs you in their life

For a person in this world, you are the world
Is it impossible? I think not
There's someone out there needs you so much, that you also need too
And in time you realize, it's not just them who needs you, you need them as well, or maybe you need to be needed by them. all the time.
That's how you belong to each other, completes each other and devoted to each other
Wouldn't it be nice to find the one for you?

You could say I'm blabbing nonsense but I think it's true

When you just have to say goodbye and there's someone who grabs your hand and say "wait, i need you" instead of "ooohhh hurry up and get out!"
It's not just a scene from a movie, it happens

Or at least it should be

se si dimentica di me

2008-08-21T11:21:00.000+07:00

I once quoted this poem in my Friendster Blog
and as I read through it again earlier today,
I realize I'm still in love with it
So here it is,
If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

felice

2008-08-17T15:43:00.002+07:00

Happy

The simple word which is cliche-ly meaningful.
It's not sophisticated at all and often comes bluntly.
Even compared to the word 'happiness', 'happy' seems so small
A kindergarten kid would have understand 'happy' before any other word
and as people get older, they forgot 'happy' and use words they thought better
Something more sophisticated which will sound smarter
Somebody I know looked in thesaurus to replace the word 'happy'

But 'happy',
is the simple word that made me glow to write
and the simple present sentence 'I am happy'
made me feel very whole :)

Maybe it's just me,
but It made me happy to tell you 'I am happy'

una cosa del passato

2008-08-17T15:34:00.003+07:00

For the ones from my past

I hope when you met me I took your breath away
I hope when you saw me smile your world stopped
I hope when you touched me your heart melted
I hope when you were mine your heart glowed
I hope when you looked at me you felt love
I hope when you loved me you meant it
I hope when you left me you're happy
I hope when you read this you wished me the same :)

mi manchi

2008-08-17T00:11:00.000+07:00

When I miss you

I enqueued songs with our memories
I flicked through the books you told me you've read
I took silly pics wondering if I could send them
I closed my eyes and wonder
I looked in the mirror and question
I read our old e-mails
I opened the little cards once more
I browsed through the pictures' folder
I dialed your number then press the reject button
I unlocked the wardrobe picking which clothes to wear the day you arrive back
I delayed arriving home by taking another turnaround
I went out for an ice cream all by myself
I tried to sleep to meet you in my dreams :)

Too many things I try to do when I miss you
And sometimes

I wrote notes
like this

is it?

2008-08-14T11:35:00.000+07:00

is it possible that someone left
because they're afraid
of being left?

weird thoughts?
yes, just a random one,
if you have some thoughts about this too please put a comment...